PEW PEW take that sugar monster!
I managed to get through the rest of my day without any sugar cave-ins. Hurray!!
I ended up working overtime today, and then walked home 2.5km. I was thinking about bad food the whole way - how I should get some, I have been "good" ((following crazy mind sugar monster self talk)) One pizza and coke won't hurt, what about stopping for a big pasta dish and some garlic bread....how about a can of chili from the corner shop (and a bar of chocolate since you are already in there), you have soup at home...stop and get some saltines... you won't eat the whole box this time.....okay no ... how about stopping at the Starbucks and getting a big special coffee and a SCONE or a fudge bar....ad nausium....
As I passed each stopping point for food - I just made my mind up to keep walking to the next one...once I was in sight of the last chance for bad food place, I'm almost the whole way home and could keep going without stopping.
I also buried my wallet down at the bottom of my backpack so that I would have to have a really good root through the whole thing to get at the cash. Then I told myself that I could eat WHATEVER I wanted that was already in the house, and however much I wanted. These kinds of things usually keep me from getting to crazy and binging. Giving myself permission to eat...as strange as that might sound from someone who is 270+lbs.
Got home and ate 3oz low fat mozzarella cheese straight away. Then I got online and read a bunch of your blogs... actually... all of the blogs that got updated today. No surprise, it was helpful to read the daily triumphs and tribulations as posted by everyone else.
Dinner was 2c of tomato soup, 6 hearty rye crackers and 1T becel. After that I still had the snackies so I had a handful of Almonds, then a peanut butter Kashi granola bar with 1tps of cashew nutbutter on it. Salty sweet goodness! I had the urge to keep eating, but I went and sat down with my book and a litre of water and told myself that I could have more to eat after I drank the whole bottle. Needless to say, that I wasn't hungry after that.
Its bed time now... I'm actually getting to be on schedule for sleep! I'm going to read a bit more and relax and enjoy my day. Especially since I can think about how today I took another forward step in beating my cravings and controlling the mental side of changing my unhealthy food habits/thoughts.