Thank you for stopping by to perv on my blog, as I fight myself to change my old habits and make new ones to get fit. I don't get it right all the time, but I'm still here and I'm still working at it.

Tamzins Double Dog Dare You Ticker!

My homage to the 14lbs that I lost on Allan’s DDDY Challenges. A watering can for the vast oceans of water that I have learned to drink and love every day.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

halfway moved...

This weekend was the halfway move! I am out of my little condo here and the renter is in. I spent the last 2 days packing, cleaning, moving, scrubbing, washing, wiping.... you know the drill. My gawds, last night I fell into bed and slept like I was dead.

This morning I was up at 7 to do the last of the floors and get ready for the key handover. I was sooooo sore. All over my body. I've not had enough water though, and I've eaten rubbish most of the weekend, so I'm not too keen on tomorrows weight in. Course, Need to find the scale as well! teehee.

I'm now staying in the spare room of a friends place while I work out the last of my two weeks at my job, and wait on immigration papers to get the rest of that done for my final move. Things are still stressful, I hate all this waiting and waiting and waiting...but there is no way around it. And of course, teh job is ending in 2 weeks and I don't have all the papers for immigration. I would hate to be out of work and not able to travel yet. Ug. Started looking for temping jobs in town - shall have to see what comes of that. Really, in this economy, not too sure that there will be much call for temps.

On a good note - today I did go and get some good food this evening. Strawberries, nectarines, bananas, humus, green peppers, cottage cheese and.... can't remember what else... so that I can make some lunch stuff and get some fruits in me this week.

Happily I'm still close enough to walk to the office, in fact, its slightly father away - which is good, and less convenient for groceries - which means walking father! Yay!! Time to get m,y activity levels back UP!

okay - this is all that I have time for... need to get some more sleep and recover from my two day marathon.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

plumbing and packing

Today was just another boring arse day with less exercise then usual. I didn't walk to work and I only walked halfway home. Had to rush home for the plumbers that were coming over to auger out the sink drain.

I'm training my replacement at the office now as we get ready to move...its hellish. Peering over someones shoulder while trying to get them to do what they need to do... I thought that it would be easier.... its not.

However, its keeping me pretty busy and I've not had much time to snack lots... speaking of...we skipped treat day this week... and no mutiny in the office! Woohoo. Perhaps I won't have to suffer through too many more of them. Of course, I only have 2 more weeks left! LOL so 2 at the most.
okay...I wanted to write more but I got distracted. food was not great - not bad. Huge salad at lunch...but today I ate too much food even though it was "good" foods for the most part.

Anyway - will have to edit tomorrow as I need to get sleep.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Getting through Hump Day

I'm still struggling with getting enough water in me. I have forgotten to bring my little "walking" water bottle for when I'm walking home - today I walked 6.7km and didn't have a drink the whole way..... ug.

Conversely - I had to pee soooo bad by the time I got home that it actually saved me from going to a shop and buying junk food. I WANTED PANCAKES.... but I didn't have the mix or eggs. I stopped at the corner store to get some - and I had to pee so bad that when I didn't see it immediately...that I had to run out of there because I was going to wet my pants if I didn't start walking again. So I hurried home.

I ended up having a 7 grain kashi granola bar, 4-5oz chedder cheese and 5 triskets as a pre dinner snack. Then had 1.5 cups of packaged pre-spiced couscous (very yum) and 1.5c green peas. Dessert was 2 cups of very nice watermelon just now.

Lunch was sushi and a diet coke(ug...must stop getting these at lunchtime), a large orange as my pre-walk snack, and breakfast was a 7grain kashi granola bar, 2 whole grain slices of toast and 3oz peanut butter and a couple of cups of coffee.

So all in all today was pretty good. I didn't walk to the office this morning, but food was good - water was poor (just over 2.5L now and I should be more like 4L).

well thats all for now - time to get some zzzzzzzz

Monday, May 25, 2009

Thirsty Thirsty Tamzin....

This last few days has been a marathon of packing and cleaning. My Mum was in town and we spent the weekend cleaning and fighting! HA! Bless she is a saint to put up with me for the weekend... I was quite the bear.

It was physically and psychologically hard...throwing out all the things that I have amassed over the years... It was ... not nice, but necessary. And like all good Mothers, she knows how to push my buttons! Ah well... love her anyway.

I have been dehydrated since Thursday night....I've been trying and trying and trying to get more water in and once you are far gone down the lacking water trail - the harder it is to get out. All weekend I was missing water. Sunday morning my fingers were so swollen I couldn't get both my rings on. This morning....I struggled to get them both on. So terrible.

I worked really hard today to drink more water and I did pretty good.

On to the good stuff...

Weigh - In

I got up and weighed in this morning and was 275lbs

.... but I knew that I was retaining water like a SOB.... So I waited today until I got home and weighed in again, even though I knew that after a day of eating I'm usually heavier....

272 Lbs

Right on track! WOOOHOOO

Other then that - I ate breakfast, walked to work and walked home. Did a 6km walk home tonight and feeling pretty good. Must get more veggies in me though...and I have to pack a couple of lunches for this week and get my water in...I'm still a little dehydrated.

Friday, May 22, 2009


Yesterday was a busy day. I did get in a LOT more exercise then normal, I played half a game with my old team - and did the warm up etc. All in all - about 75min of vigorous activity. Today I am sore as a sore thing. My legs are so hurting that its hard to get down on the toilet seat to pee!

I didn't do myself any favors with water yesterday though. I knew that I was going to play and I didn't get in even what I normally drink. So I'm trying to play catchup today. Its going to be a few days.

This weekend is packing and cleaning. I am out of my condo on Saturday next weekend - the tenant is moving in on Sunday - so I want to be mostly ready to go. All the rooms cleaned top to bottom, walls floors, baseboards, inside the cupboards, fridge, stove.... you name it!

Luckily my Mum is coming in this weekend to lean a hand physically and morally! So we will have fun I'm sure.

okay - today water goal is .... 2.5L before end of work day.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009


1. Not enough water drank today.
2. Too much crap food eaten today.

I did walk home today and I'm going to bed early so to get a full 8 hours of sleep. Lots of activity planned for tomorrow, so I'm sure to make up for it.


Big Walk



Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Small Victory worth posting

Today after another 4 day weekend away from the office (we were closed Friday and holiday monday)...I attempted to drink my "usual" office machine mochalatte.....AND....

It was too sweet!

:) back to regular joe with cream instead of this chocolate syrup abomination!

Hurray for the small things in life.

Last night I had the crazy cravings and I was out and driving (which is a BAD combo).

I was going to stop and get a coffee and timbits* (10...or 20 of them lets face it - I would have bought 2 coffees and 20 timbits to make it look like I was buying for 2 people and then eaten them all). I decided that I would go to Wendy's instead and got a baked potato with chili and a SMALL frosty. Much better and I didn't even finish the chili.

I know that since I'd already eaten dinner that this is really not like going home and eating cottage cheese and a handful of nuts or ....any of those other good foods that are sitting in the fridge, but in terms of managing binge/compulsive food behaviors...I'm going to move this into a small win as well.

more small steps. I can't imagine what I would have felt like this morning if I'd had a large coffee with cream and 20 timbits last night at 9pm. So this is much better.

I'm most of the way through my first of three liters of water today. Must keep drinking.

*timbits are donut holes to my American friends.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Monday Weigh-In

Goodness.... its been a month since I posted a weight in. My gawd its good to get back on track again.

Weigh In - 273.6lbs
Goal - 274

Yay, just under my goal. Good start. Now to keep it going.

I had a friend over for bfast - she cooked whole wheat pancakes with fruit. Delish. I got the coffees and we gossiped and she took a bunch of my stuff that I'm giving away - candles, old clothes, various shittery (baskets etc) that I won't be moving. I also started a big box of clothes to take to the Salvation Army. Everything is going along smoothly.

I went for a walk - the weather is slightly poor - colder and light rain - nothing that long sleeves and a baseball hat couldn't cure. I did another 4.5km with a hill. It was nice to get out again.

Water - NOT getting enough. Must rectify that for the rest of today.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Sunday Walk

I have been a slug all morning....and I need to get out and walk. Just finished my oatmeal, 1T honey and 2T pumpkin. Yum! That will keep me energized for a good spell. Now, get my water and get my arse moving.

Yesterdays walk was 4.2km, but had a big hill. Today is going to be 5km - no hill.

Now that I have posted...it must be done! :)

Walk done.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Weekend Goal

Friday I was a busy beaver! Did some packing, organization of old cloths, took a friend to the airport and then more work around the condo... its strange to see all my walls bare of photos. :(
I also took my wedding dress and some other clothing to the plus size consignment store for selling.

They're a mystery to me.... they have all these terrible old lady clothes in there - and they are really NOT that much cheaper then store bought... if I want used clothing I don't really want to pay much for it, ya'know. I saw a skirt in there that I consigned and it was $22..... bloody hell... I think I paid $25 for it. Lets just make some money here ladies, put it up there for a tenner and someone will buy it....I also moved it to the front of the rack! haha!

Today has been slower paced but lovely. I had oatmeal with 2T pumpkin (unsweetened)and 1T honey. I went out for an hour long walk in the sunshine, got a spicy Vietnamese sub and a diet coke for lunch.

I'm going to get at my closet again today and see what sorting out I can get done. I have clothing in there that I haven't worn in ages.... I have to get rid of this stuff. Really...I'm moving to the land of cheap clothing and shoes so what am I holding onto ratty flip flops and sandals for?

Jen - I'm moving to the great state of TX, hubby is already there... it's going to be quite the change from my life here, but we're excited. :)

Okay - back to being productive! And.....drinking more water... that's my goals this weekend. To have over 2L a day. I'm terrible about water on weekends.

Thursday, May 14, 2009


Well its about that time again. After some epic failing at blogging and weight management for the last few months, I need to get back onto some goals and try to get somewhere.

Although I consistently set and fail to reach any goal I have set on here for myself, I am still compelled to do it again. I guess I'm hoping that one of these times I will achieve a goal and then be so flooded with good feelings that I will do it again...and then again...and then all of a sudden it will be a habit and presto chango...I will start to head in the right direction and get close to achieving my penultimate goal.

Anyway....here is the short term set of weight goals that I have made:

May 18, 2009 - GOAL - 274
May 25, 2009 - GOAL - 272
June 1, 2009 - GOAL - 270 (move out of condo)
June 8, 2009 - GOAL - 269 (live with friends like a student! ha)
June 15, 2009 - GOAL - 267 (job ends...2 weeks of holiday to pack, visit friends/family)
June 22, 2009 - GOAL - 265
June 29, 2009 - GOAL - 263
July 6, 2009 - GOAL 261
(move to the US completed)

July 1st is my potential (fingers crossed) moving date to the US. It would be nice to start job hunting when feeling a little bit better about my size and the way my business clothing looks on me.

261lbs would also put me at 20lbs down from my starting weight and that would be nice!

Anyway - Now that its on here! Thats the first step. Now...I need to get a daily plan on how I am going to get this done! I'll leave that for the next post.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Hump Day

Well today was not a great day for eating - but I had a few better choices then had been the norm lately. Also, weighed in at 275 this morning....*small sigh* water has done a bit of the trick here - I didn't think that I had put on 7lbs in 4 days.

I had a burger and fries at lunch...today while coming home from visiting friends I was highly considering fast food for dinner again...and then I decided no... that I would go home and eat there. Instead I had 2 whole wheat pita breads with my 1 & 1/4 c of curry sauce with chick peas and green peas. :)

I didn't input my calories today - but I did track my foods at the office today and I'll add in what I ate today to it.

Bed time is going to be EARLY today..in fact just after I finish this. I'm tired as!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009


Well today's scale was a rude awakening after a lovely extended weekend with the hubby....



Today I made a chickpea and green pea curry with whole wheat pita bread for lunches for the remainder of this week. And I am going to start tracking my food again....and get some more fruit, and start eating oatmeal in the mornings again.

yep....I'm pretty sure I'm grazing beyond belief again and been packing on the pounds with mindless eating. I know the hubby and I ate out pretty much every stinking meal, but I do need to get this back under control...278...bloody well back where I started.

I don't want to be fat. I don't want to be so out of shape and hate how I look in my clothes.

I walked home tonight, then went for a 30min walk about the neighborhood. Baby steps...they all add up.

Monday, May 4, 2009

pulling up my socks

Time to start pulling up my socks again. It was beautiful this morning and I still took the bus...why...because I didn't get enough sleep and was late late late to work. Arg. Must change this. I know why I set it as a goal, I just don't get more then 5hours a night typically.... and I wonder why my body won't get rid of any fat.

This weekend was good - I played my first game in a long time and I really really really suffered! LOL So I had nearly three hours of various stages of running/walking around on Saturday. Sunday I had a lovely walk for about 40min. My legs are still sore today, so I'm good. No need to kill myself.

The hubby is in town for 5 days starting on Thursday - I'm so excited!

Food has been my downfall again, and lack of water. I have to get my bottles filled up and next to me at the office and at home. I woke up last night because I was so thirsty! Not good.

This is about all the energy I have for posting today.... more packing to do this evening.

Friday, May 1, 2009

Starting Off in May

I've been naughty about not posting - but it has been a tremendously difficult couple of weeks in terms of work-life etc. I've been doing okay on my goals (more like a 2.5 stars out of five), but the eating has been my downfall, and I've been hovering in the same area 271-275 for the last month or more... No forward progression.

I once again missed my goal for the 250's for May... clearly. However I'm not going to get too upset about it. I do want to start making better progress, but at this point in time, I'm not sure that I have the energy to make any more changes/goals/efforts. Sad, but true.

I have started playing sport again - which I think will make a difference, but that is about the extent that I have for extra activities at the moment.

This last week has been difficult.

Moving & packing & Organizing
I have a bunch of my stuff that a friend who is moving into a new place this weekend is liberating from my home to his. I have 4 weeks left in the condo and have to start getting it all ready for my exit!

The final papers for my immigration to the United States went in - for anyone else out there that has done this, I'm sure you will agree, that this was the singular most stressful thing that I have ever done. The forms, checking all the papers and documentation, worrying that you have missed something... ug. My husband is already down in TX and I'm stuck up here waiting waiting waiting. Its emotionally draining, but the good part is that its nearly over.

My fathers father died last weekend. I've been estranged (by my own choice for a number of years, although I would occationally see my grandmother but it was strained to say the least). He was a b*stard whom I never liked, but that didn't make it much easier. Its made me think about my family history and all roughed the water on what was a clear smooth lake. Not that I regret my decision, infact I still totally stand behind it and know that it was the best thing that I ever did for myself.

I work in the tax department of an accounting firm, needless to say that this month (tax returns both Canadian and US) deadlines were here and that means lots of stressed busy people and rushed work time and of course....more deadlines... etc etc etc.

Anyway - I feel like a total "excuse machine". Then look at this and realize that this is lots, but honestly....does the sum of my life really give me the license to eat cupcakes and chocolate bars?? I mean, I do, and feel like I can because of A, B & C...but that is a fault with me... that I eat to medicate my stress. The I give myself hell over being so mean to myself about this since I actually have not done that badly....

ANYWAY.... enough of that. Here is the synopsis of my last week and a bit.


Breakfast & walking to Work:
Good - I've been walking to work every morning and eating breakfast still! Yay!!

Weekend Adventures:
This weekend past I got in more then an hour of walking on both days. Which was great. Less adventurous though and more of the same… have to think of some ways to switch it up.

Bed at 11.30:
Bed time has been sneaking later and later! But I have had more earlier nights then not, and much better then before. I have been doing some reading and last night was a late one as I finished off reading World War Z (for the second time! Great book).

I've started buying lunches again - pure laziness. Dinners have been good though, and I have yummy stuff in the fridge. I've made a promise to myself to get the food in the cupboards eaten up and I'm making a dent. Must carry on with it. I soooooo wanted to order in dinner last night - I was tired and cranky from moving and packing the furniture up in my little condo. I wanted pizza…but I had so.

Push Ups:
I've totally let this one slide. However now I'm back playing some recreational sports its should get better…or at least, I'm going to be stronger anyway. I'm pretty much sore everyday now and our first game is this weekend.

Really…not nearly enough….not nearly enough at all.