I've decided that we are going to show up late-ish to the party. Then we can, fingers crossed, avoid the tables of food/buffet line.
I will also be full from our dinner, and will drink soda water/sparkling water all night. If I need a snack. I can have one at home after we get in.
That is my plan and I am promising myself right here and now that this is what I will do tonight. There will be no food to cross my lips. I do not need it. Nor do I want it.
I'm not much of a partier anymore. I don't drink to excess but have an occasional glass of wine - but never in these places. Its funny. I used to be a BIG drinker. (That is that I was both physically huge and drank a LOT! ha!)
5 years ago I stopped drinking. I didn't like who I was when I was drinking, I didn't like that I was out of control when I was drinking, I didn't like that I couldn't have one drink and stop. It was always to excess...
humm... Parallel much?
It was really hard to have one drink, then tell my friends that I wasn't going to have any more. People would buy them for me, and put them in my hand and I would drink them. So I finally just said, "I don't drink anything, anymore". The absolute was a lot easier for me to handle. It was also easier for everyone else to handle. I became the one that "didn't drink", that option was now off the table.
Food is the same. I've read a couple of blogs this week that are talking about addiction and food issues.
Tonight is going to be a struggle for me. People will be drunk and they will want me to participate. The drinking is easy to say no to. The food will be harder. So I guess the total avoidance method is what is going to work for me right now. I managed to do it with one part of my life... why not this?
I want to work up that same hate for who I am as a fat person, just like I hated who I was as a drunk person.
Alright... here is what I WILL be eating today. We are already up past lunch (Yum, it was outstanding):
My Fit Foods:
Oatmeal - steel cut oats with blackberries and walnuts
Berry Salad - chicken breast, blackberries, red onion, goat cheese & balsamic vinegar&evoo dressing
Good Morning Sunshine - ground spiced turkey, egg whites, parboiled rice, onion, salsa