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Sunday, March 14, 2010

*shrug*

right.... I'm really really displeased. With all kinds of things but mostly with this.

296.2lbs

That is another gain this week of 1.8lbs.

I am also displeased with my current pattern:

Monday -Wednesday... food is good - going to the gym - drinking lots of water - feeling good.
Thursday through Sunday.... the bad eating starts to creep in with the "I've been good, I can eat something bad - its not going to make that big a difference" etc etc etc... and then I find myself eating out, getting poor choices for food - allowing myself to eat things that I shouldn't.

Its not fun to be this mad at myself. I'm so depressed about it that I'm not in the mood to do anything. How is that for counter-productive.

Thursday - dinner out
Friday - Poor breakfast snacks, Fried lunch (bought), Dinner care of Wendy's
Saturday - lunch out, ice cream, dinner out
Sunday - breakfast out

*Sigh* I am really not happy....NOT HAPPY

My brain is spending 90% of its energy trying to think of excuses for the gain - its salt, it that I didn't have a poo this morning, its this, its that, its everything BUT the real reason - that being I AM NOT EVEN TRYING. even though when I type that I tell myself that isn't true.

I guess I am trying, just not consistently.

Great. I just yelled at the Husband. Yeah...how dare he talk to me right now. FUUUUCK....

Anyway. Here is what else I did... Measurements. I've not done them in a long time too.

Neck: 16.5
Bust: 49
Chest: 44
Waist: 50
Hips: 53.5
R.Thigh: 26
L.Thigh: 26.5
R.Calf: 26
L.Calf: 26.5
R.Bicep: 15.5
L.Bicep: 15
Total Inches: 331

More later I guess. I need to decide what I'm going to do with myself.

18 comments:

dani31608 said...

I look forward to hearing about your new course of action to keep you motivated throughout the week. I think most of us suffer with the same thing, really. Apathy creeps in every once and a while, too. But you'll be your mojo back!

Keep that head up!

She woke up FAT said...

Sounds like it's time for a new plan.

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CJ said...

((hugs)). Look ahead. Dont lose the motivation. :)

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Blubeari said...

I know what you mean.. it is so hard not to let things go over the weekend. Maybe change up your plan for the end of the week workouts or even the weekend? If I figure out how to stay motivated through the whole week I will let you know!! lol :-)

Scarlet Simple said...

Hey I just found you through Lisa and I wanted to tell you to keep your chin up! The fact that you are here being open and honest is a HUGE step. You can do this, and I will be over here cheering you on as you do.

Re-evaluate, make some changes. Stick to your guns. Remember that losing weight should not be a lower priority than going out with friends or cleaning or anything else that gets us to put it off or have a "quick" unhealthy meal.

I cant wait to hear what you are planning to try next!

VRaz60 said...

I'm right there with ya!! I'm having difficulty gettin' the job done, too. I have a day or two when I'm very good, then shoot myself in the foot. If anyone leaves really good advice for keeping the mojo goin'....please let me know the secret. Til then, I'll just stay at it.

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mouster said...

you can do it!!! i love sparkpeople.com it's free great support and when i'm feeling low i know i can log in and mention that and get lots of great advice and encouragement to keep pushing forward. come join..i'm mouster on there if you join

Lori Ann said...

First as someone who has been over 300lbs., I want to tell you that you can do this!

Weekends are tough for me too. It is a time when I spend more time with my husband and tend to eat out. I am still learning to make healthy choices in a world of burgers and fries. I will admit that I get tired of eating grilled chicken sandwiches sans mayo at Wendy's, Chick-fil-a, McDonald's et al.

But you can do this! I am amazed by how much you are taking on at one time. You are not only doing the healthy eating, but exercise and water. Wow! Your body is probably very confused right now. Who is this crazy person who has taken over? Your body is thinking, "Can't we just order a pizza and veg on the couch?"

But, no, you can do this! If you haven't done it yet, make sure that you have seen your doctor to rule out any medical reason that you are not losing. I found out after several failed attempts that my insulin levels were high. I started a prescription medicine and the weight has been coming off steady ever since.

I can't wait to see what happens to you in the coming days!

Kelly said...

Your friend Lisa sent me over to motivate you. I am on Spark People with her and I can SOOOOO relate to your struggle. I started at 237 pounds and am now about 153.

Here are my starting measurements.

Weight 237
Hips 53”
Waist 42.5”
Arm 17”
Thigh 29”
Bust 51"

It has taken me 2 years to get where I am. Some days good and some days bad. Some months I just plain gave up, but I have gotten back on. Don't beat yourself up at all!!!

Read my blog on Spark. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_summary.asp?id=ZEBRAMOM1

You will understand that I know what it's like. Come join us on Spark. The support is wonderful and it's FREE!!!! I have tried so many times to lose weight and I always gained it back. This is the only time, after 20 years of being overweight and just plain fat, that I have stuck with it.

You CAN do this!!!!

Anonymous said...

Hi, I too came to see you because of Lisa and Sparks. That and my Wii have helped me to take off 70 lbs in the last year. You have to take it a day at a time and believe me I have had good days as well as bad. Just don't beat yourself up when you have a bad one. Take it a day at a time. It really does work. I still have another 50 to go so I will be there a long time yet.

Tamzin said...

Wow... I am so thankful and moved by all your comments.

Thank you!!!! It really helped me get through today much better than I thought possible!

*bows*

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Lisa said...

To my spark friends and blogging buddies...I am very sorry that I asked you all to come over here to help this gal find her "mojo"...as it would seem that it was all just a gimmick to get new readers and nothing more.
oh well, I guess you live and learn...

Tamzin said...

For all that are wondering what Lisa has deleted from here and why she wants her friends to stop coming here..... here is her last comment.

"Hi Tazmin...
I'm amazed at how quickly you managed to get back up on your feet after being so depressed........just one day huh?
and I'm amazed at how stupid I was to fall for your "must find more blog to read so I can get more followers" scheme.
I actually didn't realize it until this here post and as I was reading and scrolling down...well, I read that last statement...

"On a very positive note!!!! the best thing that happened this weekend was all the new commenter's that I now get to perv on!! Hurray for blogs to read"

Whooohooo!...way to go Tazmin! Ya got yourself some more readers...and wow even a few more comments on your page.
Gosh, don't worry yourself over those people that were actually concerned that you were "depressed" and came on here thinking that you were....that's my fault. I was just as duped as they were apparently.

No worries though...I'm sure with all these new blogs though you will have plenty to read...at least for a month or so...right?

Take care of yourself hun... :) "

This is more for my own record than anything else, so when I come back to re-read my blog I remember WTF happened.

Thank you
Tamzin