Weekend catch up

First off.

Totally slept in this morning and didn't weigh in. POOP!! Will have to do that tomorrow morning. Last week was a busy one. I really really didn't want to go running on Wednesday, but I did and..... IT WAS GREAT.

I'm so happy that I have a running buddy again, it makes a world of difference to have someone there to count on you. We even did a 6min x 5 running with 1min between. We are getting to the point where we can easily cover 5min and don't eve know it has gone past and I end up looking at my watch and 6 and a half minutes has gone by! Love it!

Period is almost over, wearing my new "didn't used to fit" pants today. They are a little tight, but of course..... WATER...

I'm totally not getting enough water. GD this is hard work. right...speaking of that. I need to get back to it.

More later!

Catch up & weigh in

Friday - running! 5x5min/1min walking between. Its getting HAWT!!! Sunday - Walking - 1 hr good paced walking. Spent the rest of the day running around and keeping busy. NEED TO GET TO BED EARLIER. omg. I'm killing myself with the late nights. Weigh In: 288lbs (down 1.6lbs) This week is packed: Tonight is running, then softball Tuesday - weights Wednesday - running Thursday - weights Friday - Habitat for Humanity! That will knock me on my butt!! Saturday - traveling Sunday - traveling This week is going to be a tough one. But I know that I can do it. Tuesday is going to be weights and prep day. Food, lunches, weekend packing in advance!! Water is ok - not great. Period is going to start this week. *joy* that could be part of the reason why I've been holding more water than usual. Going to pound my way through 5L today. down 1.5L at the moment. Get another 1.5 in me before leaving the office and then tonight I'll be moving around and drinking. back... to... work!!!!! WALL O'TEXT...don't know who to fix it and don't have time right now. stupid blogger. RAWR :(

Running!!

Ahhhh last night I got back on on the trail for a run with my running buddy.

I have to say, I REALLY NEEDED THAT!

Its getting much easier and we ended up running longer sets then intended because we were so busy chatting and moving.

5min walk
5min jog
1min walk
6.5min run
1min walk
6.5min run
1min walk
5min run
5min walk

my ankles are really swollen and its been creeping up my legs. I've been trying to get lots of walking at work done, but the desk is where my magic happens, and this week has been crazy. So sitting sitting sitting.

So very not good.

Water is better, as is food.

Tonight we are back on the trail for another run - making up for missing on Tuesday. Sunday is the long slow day - 3.5mil walk is on the books.

Looking forward to the weekend and catching up on my blogs. :)

Thursday Run done!

Well, my legs have been hurting but having a buddy to motivate me to get out there is great. Met up at 6.30 for a 30+ run.

Warm up 5min walking.
5min running
1min walking
5x's
ended with a shorter walk.

It was hard, but I did it and there is only progress to be made. Sunday we are going to do a 3mile walk with speedy and slower walking intervals. Our "long slow run" of the week, until we build up a bit more.

Also last night did 60 min of some light weights. Throwing shot put and some other fun stuff for the highland games. My shoulder was sore, but I did light and was good and warm when I started.

Last night I slept like a baby. Neck and sholder feel even BETTER today, so that is awesome news.

okay - almost lunch and the boss has a meeting so I have to go and get thiers. Time to "run"! haha

Adjustment

ahhhh, much better!

Two and half weeks I've been suffering with neck and shoulder pain. I finally broke down and got a recommendation for a Chiropractor, after getting a super massage last week and it only just helping slightly. I couldn't go on without some intervention!

This chiro works on people AND animals. Mostly horses and dogs, so I figured that she must be strong enough for a thick girl like me if she can handle a horse! HAHA

She did an amazing job. Best Doc of Chiro that I've seen. My jaw has been clicking for oh... 10 years from an old rugby collision. Fixed. I can't even tell you how strange it is that my jaw IS aligned now.

I had the best nights sleep last night that I've had in 2 weeks. YAY!!

Running tonight. My legs are hot and sore today. So tonight's run is going to be hard to start, but at the end I know I'm going to feel great.

Running and a Weigh In

Okay, so the good news is that the weigh in was not as bad as I thought that it would be.

This morning I hopped on the scale and it was:

287.2lbs

Feb 9th I was up to 289.5, so this is good. I thought that I was well into the 290's again.

Okay, so I'm doing okay and now that I'm adding my water and some movement into my days, then I am set to get some progress.

Last night I went for my first run in gawds now how long. A year? Likely more. This is what we did.

5min walk warm up.
5min jogging
1min walking
repeat 5x's
5min walking to cool down

It was good. We covered about 2.5miles and I can feel it in my legs today. I'm very very pleased. Thursday's run... I'm actually looking forward to it.

okay - back to work here. Its sunny, and I would rather be outside, but I will just have to enjoy lunch in the park.

Back in the Saddle

Back at the office for day 2 from holidays... omg its hard to get back into this routine after taking a break. Of course - there is really not a lot going on here that is keeping me busy.

Which lead me to my first epiphany of the year....

Stopping doing something for a significant amount of time makes its twice as hard to get back into it. I'm no rocket surgeon, this is not news. You all know where this is going. Lifestyle....Diet.... Exercise....Water consuption....

I'm really happy to report that I didn't say "EFF IT" over Christmas and just go all out on the eating and laying around. It would be three times as hard to get back into the water and eating habits if I had stopped.

As it was, I didn't track all my days of water and I guestimated a little more than usual as I had a less structured day. I'm finding it a little tough to get back into logging in my spreadsheet and making sure I have all the details. But I'm making myself do it.

Last night I had a little victory. I got home and the weather was HORRIBLE. Its bee pouring rain and storming... but I knew that I needed to get some exercise in. I asked the Hubby if he was interested in a quick walk in the walk in the rain. He was not. I had a fleeting moment where I thought, "I can make it up later". And then snapped out of it.

Later NEVER comes for me. Its always about here and now.

So I told him I was going out there - put on my long pants, long sleeve shirt, vest and a ball cap and headed out to the park. It was deserted, but I did my walk - I even did a couple little stints of ...*gasp* running. You know...just to try it out (need better bra!!).

Woke up this morning with that slight nice heat in my legs to tell me that they had done something. Pounding back my waters and had a big cottage cheese and pear breakfast. The rain is still here - but today is looking brighter already.

Road Trip

Hubby is working for a couple days in San Antonio! I'm coming along for a change of scenery. Packed my gym clothes!!! I'm excited about the hotel gym and lounging in foreign book stores. I also have a bunch of fruit and veggies packed for the drive.

Likely will indulge a little more with some restaurant foods for dinners, but I am keeping the road snacks to a minimum and water to a maximum!

Day One...Whos your Daddy!

6.50 am alarm rings. Me thinking - HELL NO! Its dark & I'm tired & I don't wanna go.
7.00 am alarm rings. Me - ug, I have to go, I need to go. I should go I will feel better about it and I still have time. I will have to do the run later and I dont know what we are doing tonight...and I need something to post about on my blog!
7.10 am in the car.

I did it. Put on my running cloths (that were already laid out), jumped into the car and went to the park to run. It was quite nice once I started. I changed my route slightly, and really the run was great. My Ipod was dead...thought that it would charge overnight, but my computer went to sleep and the charge didn't happen. So I had to listen to my own breathing and thoughts today. I didn't do too badly. Its so strange to think that I can now go for a 30min+ long run and feel good.

I'm not speeding along mind you - shuffling is more what I would descirbiee my pace as, but I did actually gain ground and pass some walkers... so that is something!

3 sets 10min running, 1min rest between and 1 5min extra run at the end. CHECK!

Distance that I covered today was 2.46miles... I'm really close to being able to run the loop of hte park instead of doing a cresent pattern!!! :)

Once it was over, I can see that my argument about it being too dark is foolish - its light out and the park is packed with runners and walkers. Its just another excuse that I try to fool myself into believing so that I can stay in bed.

However, I did go back to bed when I got home... foolish for two reasons, now I'm HUNGRY! and my pillow smells of sweaty hair! haha I'll have to wash the sheets today!

Today I really need to focus on getting lots of water and good food into me!

Swing and a miss....

At least I got another swing at it later today, however, I did not get up this morning to go running. I tried... I really really tried... okay... I kinda tried, not really that hard. I turned the alarm off and went back to sleep.

I did get my run in today!! I didn't like it - and it was hard and I was pretty much hating every minute of it... but I did it.

So. One more tomorrow and then I get to set my new goals!! Weeeee!!!!

missing out....

on my run today!! Yikes.. today melted away and this morning was a nightmare. So my run will not be completed today. ARG! So close. I will do a make up run - but that's just not the same.

Today's Errors:

1. I didn't do my prep last night, instead intending to do it this morning. I.e. have my gym bag all packed up and ready to come with me today.

2. Choosing to stay longer at my morning social event...like until 3pm instead of 1pm... and missing out on my run time.

If I had my running gear I would be just finishing my run now... but since I didn't I had to come home and have to get the hubby now at the office... leaving in 5min. We also have plans tonight with friends, so dinner is going to be pretty heavy. I know I will stay under my calories, but its going to be close.

Tomorrow morning I have to drag myself out of bed and get to the park to run. It is not an option to miss. MUST DO.

Arg!

Why is it that....

....works outs are needed the most - when you want to do them the least??

I spent the better part of this afternoon not wanting to go for my run...even though I knew that I had to - especially since I'm LOVING completing them and posting about completing them!!!

Got to the gym and did my run. It was nothing to be scared of. Completed, Checked off and Enjoyed. Did I say how much I love marking my runs as done.... LOVE IT!

Getting a big ol' bottle of water & eating good dinner... feeling pretty darn happy with the world right now.

Done, Done and.... Done!

Running - Done!

Job Hunt - Done!

Freaking out about food & ranting like a fool - DONE!

Wow... what a total 180 this afternoon.

After all that posting & freaking & huffing & puffing & sulking ... I got a call this afternoon and got offered one of the jobs that I interviewed for. The good one. HURRAY!!! I shall rejoin the land of the employed. Monday I go in for all the paperwork. What a total relief. I told my hubby that today's shite interviews were good job karma and getting the call today was the reward.

He got home and we got our things together and headed off to the gym. I did my run and it was decidedly.... pleasant. 5min walking warm up and 3 sets of 10 min of running and 1 min walking break between. I felt good, and pace was nice and even. I did some ups and downs, but mostly ran at the 3.4-3.6 pace, but got up to the 4.0's again for a little bit. Really is amazing what a little bit of exercise does for the mood.

Today I've been hungry a lot (like right now while typing this), legitimate tummy growling hunger. However, I've not had anywhere near enough water - which is why I had such a food spaz this afternoon. I'm trying to get through the rest of this liter and then we are going to go out for some sushi to celebrate my job. I have a good chunk of calories left for today - so we will be good and get lots of salmon and tuna belly ....easy on the rice! :D I can't wait.

That is all!

Done!

Another goal tucked under my belt today. A morning of procrastination, however I successfully negotiated my way to the gym today. This mornings treadmill jaunt was actually.... enjoyable!!!! I started at a light pace and worked hard in the second half of the ten minute sets. I was focusing today on staying strong though my core.

The time flew by and at the end I felt like I could have done another set of 10! What a great feeling.

Set 1
7min 3.4
3min - 3.6
Set 2
5min 3.5
3min 3.6
2min 3.8
Set 3
5min 3.5
3min 3.8
2min 4.0

The bad news is that yesterday one of my back teeth got a chip. I have an appointment shortly here, to see what can be done. I'm upset as I have no insurance for this sort of thing and I'm still not employed. ARG. Of course the dentist that did the filling in that tooth is in Canada... so its not like I can go in there and see if they can fix it for free. :( Rawr.

But such is life and I know I can't leave these kinds of things without care so I will have to buck up and pay. I hope its easy and cheap (ish!).

Todays goal - 3L water!

Alrighty, time for some breakfast and a shower!



EDIT:: tooth fixed...$250 lighter in the wallet now. :( But my chompers are important so it had to be done.

Grumps!

I.AM.GRUMPY.TODAY. I don't often have really grumpy days, but this one took hold last night and is not showing signs of dissipating anytime soon.

Another run under the belt. Again....I didn't want to go and I spent the majority of the morning thinking of excuses for not going until a fit of rage against my laziness took hold and I marched into the bedroom, got changed and went to the gym.

OH....and wtf is this about.... i get on a treadmill and it is the only one in a row of 11 that is being used and some dude gets on the one RIGHT BLOODY NEXT TO ME. Needless to day I gave him the evil eye for a good minute and this did nothing to improved the grumpy mood that I am in already. Seriously though... MOVE.THE.EFF.OVER. ....end rant.

I spent a good portion of the morning procrastination trying to debate gym vs park for running. I don't mind running in the mornings, when there are less people and more of them are runners. Kind of like... they are there for the same purpose and less judgemental. Once 10.30am hits I am not keen in bouncing my fat ass around a public park track huffing like a steam engine and getting passed by speed walkers!!!!! Not to mention the all kinds of people walking and running and eyeballing me! eep!!

Ug... anyway today's victory is that I went and did my run! I was really pleased with it as well - the last 5 minutes were the hardest that I have pushed myself and I felt good once it was done. The Swass Chaff is still there, but healing! :)

Time for a shower and then some chickpea & ground turkey meatloaf with squash for lunch.

Then... I need to figure out why I am so grumpy today and get some more happy into it!

Goal Today - 3L water!

Swass Chaff

Today was a running day, but due to Wednesdays sweaty ass chaff (Swass Chaff), from running inside on the treadmill, I decided to let my neither regions have a day in Lieu to recover.

Tomorrow morning I will do my Jan 1 run. :)

These last 2 days have been hectic. I don't feel like I've had much in the way of me time, or relaxation. We had some friends drop in unexpected for two days and we ended up giving them the full Houston tour for both yesterday and today.

Thursday we were out of the house from 12.30 until 2am with a very brief stop in to change cloths for our new years even party at around 10pm. We took them out to one of the major outlet mall places... damn I wish that I had worn my pedometer....since we were there for nearly three hours walking. My legs were dying!

Today we were up and gone at 11 this morning and finally back home tonight at 5.00pm. Phew!

The bad news is that having people to show around and being out all day means two things:

1. I did NOT drink enough water... not even close
2. we ate out WAY too much.

I am back to tracking my calories and yesterday was a crap shoot. I didn't do too badly, but I was some 600 calories over my daily allowance, not great. However, I did eat only when I was actually hungry and .....DRUM ROLL PLEASE.... left food on my plate when I was full!!!!!!!!!! Major Non Scale Victory there.

Anyway, I'm taking some time to myself right now. I'm boycotting the family dinner tonight since it is fatty, creamy, calorie laden with butter and smells horrible to me right now (crab au gratin and beef stroganoff) *barf*.

YAY BODY for knowing that what I want and need is water and a quiet place to read and relax.... me thinks its time for a hot bath.

See Jane Run!

I really didn't want to (again) go running this morning, but I did!

I ended up at the gym instead of outside as it was raining hard and ... well... I didn't want to dirty up my new pristine runners! hahah What a princess!!!

The run was really quite good once I was started. I even got lost in thought in the last 10min phase and ended up running an extra minute while my mind was off in another place. Amazing!

Of course the "She Wolf" song is timed perfectly for the "gawd damn I don't want to be running" portion of the run, and the "Sexy Chick" song is well positioned for the "walking would be nice right about now" phase! Both songs get me moving and running that little bit harder. I walked for another 20 minutes and was all done!

Managed to get in 55min in total, 3 miles (I think... I forgot to write it down). I feel pretty darn good about it. **BIG SMILE**

Yesterday I dusted off and reworked my of food diary. I have my excel sheet with my total calories for the day with a percentage for Carbs, fat and proteins (55%, 20%, and 25% daily intake respectively). Then I can track each food for calories, carbs, fats and proteins with what my daily should be and see if I can kick start my eating in a new direction. Tracking itself is a wake up - well... more mindful since you have to remember what it was and write it down.

On a side note - the HR woman's (with whom I have an interview on the 5th) name who I misspelled emailed me back with a "not a problem, have a great holiday" email. Phew! And yesterday I was called by an agency regarding another position that I applied for. Fingers crossed for an interview on that one too. I would very much like to rejoin that land of the working!

Another side note - I really want to thank all of you for your comments these last few days. It is really been hard to bite the bullet and accept that I have failed and move forward again. Even blogging can make one feel like they are still isolated. Your comments were very appreciated. You all rock my socks!!! Perspective is free for the taking, but can be hard to get and focus on ones success! You have all given me that with your blogs and your comments, and I thank you.

Guess who did her run today!?

ME!!!!

haha... got up and lounged in bed with hubby and enjoying some Christmas spirit... then decided that I did indeed have to go, Mr.Tamzin came with for a walk. On the way to the park I REALLY didn't want to do it. Per normal, I was thinking all kinds of things about how to jam out of running and just walk... but in the end, I fired up the ipod and started. Why is that first step so hard?

Got it all done and even added a little more distance to it today. I don't have time to map it all out on mapmyrun.com yet, but I will later. Likely only an extra 100m or so, but more is more.

First 10 was hard, second 10 was actually easier and I got to the end of it and only just realized that it was walking time. Had totally lost track of the minutes!!

Okay - time for a shower and then Christmas Visiting for the day!

Hope that everyone is enjoying their time with family and friends... and (as Tena likes to say) getting in enough water today...even though its a holiday!!!

HUMILIATION

I did it!!!!!!!


I got up this morning and went on my run. It was hard, but not the impossible dream that it was last week. I had to keep telling myself that I would do it - rain, shine, sick, dying, winy... extra winy.... extra extra supreme winy.


I am starting to get a bit sick...I can feel the pressure in my ears... and I was pretty sure that I was going to use that as an excuse to not run this morning... but I didn't. Its just 30 minutes.... if you can't do it, you don't have to, but you have to try. And then I was out the door and off to the park.

Now then.... Running. I like to think of this in the loosest sense of the word. I use the word run and that means that I am "not walking". I would guess that I am moving at about the 3mile an hour pace... if not less. However today...I was out there.... in the final 5 minutes of the run... the thing that I feared the most happened....


A person walking caught up with me. They didn't pass me... but I am pretty sure that it was out of embarrassment for me that they turned around and went back the way they had came from... or got to their car mercifully before they could actually pass me. I did pick up the pace a little when I caught them in the corner of my eye... but by gawds.. I didn't have a lot of gas to give at that stage.

Anyway - I will live, and I will keep running, and soon I won't be passed by walkers!!

Dec 21, 2009 -
5min walk warm up
3x 10min run with 1 min rest between.
2.4miles completed

Also, here is another reason why running in the mornings isn't so bad. I brought my camera for a post run pic today... its so beautiful out.

Sunday Wrap Up

Got in some extra-cise today as well. Just a short one as my legs are still juuuust a little sore from Fridays "run". We went for a quick 20min walk (2,350 steps - 1.1miles) in the sun and fresh air. There is something amazing about getting outside. I'm a sun baby for sure, all the blue sky is really giving me a lot of positive energy!

Also got in our big Sunday Shopping trip... have a few meals planned out for this week and got a couple of the basics that we need for the shelves. The trip around the store was 1,500 steps. I'm enjoying wearing the pedometer. I guess I like to have numbers to look at, especially since I'm not weighing in and don't have a scale! I will have to do some inches soon... perhaps New Years Inches.....

However, all that being said I have already had over a dozen different thoughts about how I am going to skip out on my morning run tomorrow. Ahh that old chestnut, self doubt!

Regardless, I am pressing on. Running clothes are all set. Ipod is ready to go with my watch and runners.... all laid out in a row!

Okay, early to bed tonight! Get my good zzz's in before I get up tomorrow and show myself who's boss!