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Tamzins Double Dog Dare You Ticker!

My homage to the 14lbs that I lost on Allan’s DDDY Challenges. A watering can for the vast oceans of water that I have learned to drink and love every day.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

and...that sucked

This week has been going from bad to worse. I've not done a lick of exercise and I'm not happy about it. I want to... but I'm not making myself do it.

Tonight - after dinner the Hubby and I set out for the track around the park to get in a little walk in the evening and jump start ourselves back into exercise. It was one of those misty kind of nights and it was quite nice. I was happy and excited to get out and get moving again.

Until a suburban pulled over on the far side of the street... it was going the wrong way down the one way road. Some kid got out... and went to the back. It looked strange... I was staring at him and he kept glancing at me...

Then I got hit with a raw egg. In the calf. Cheers erupt from the car and another one whizzes by me into the bushes. They jump in the car and take off.

I.WAS.PISSED. VERY VERY VERY VERY ANGRY. SOOOO F*****CKING ANGRY. All over my pants, my leg, my sock and my runners. ANGRY like I want to kick in the door to their car angry.

Then I get in the car and really..... all those old feelings from being a kid come back. They threw eggs at me. Of all the people that were walking there... they pick me. Because I'm fat.

WHY as a grown adult am I feeling like this. I'm pretty much done for today. I'm sullen and crying and the Husband is upset and doesn't know what to do and has no idea whats wrong I'm sure. But I just can't say these words out loud. So I will just put them here instead.

Tomorrow... will be a better day, but right now. Not so good.


SlenderSwan2B said...

Oh no! That is just so very horrible! I am so very sorry that happened! Keep your chin up and just remember karma circles.

Karla said...

people can be such jerks, tomorrow will be better ((((HUGS))))

spunkysuzi said...

That is just cruel!! "hugs" I can remember kids doing things like that when i was in high school.
Honestly when i was playing soccer this week and was the last one picked it took me right back to high school when the same thing would happen!! Some kids can be such jerks

tena said...

How awful. I'm sorry that happened to you. I know how you are feeling. I was picked on a lot in my "chubby" fase. They probably would have thrown an egg even if you were built like Heidi Klum :)

Be kind to yourself and don't listen to those old tapes going around in your head. Those little sh*ts will get theirs!!

Lila Leeds said...

What a bunch of fuckwits (sorry there is no other word for it). I hope the great Karma God craps all over them from a great height.

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Anonymous said...

Oh my gosh!!! I am so sorry that happened to you. Kids can be very ingnorant at times.

Again...sorry :(

Friend of the Bear said...

Hi Tamzin. I'm sorry this happened. Just don't let it put you off in any way. They are just ignorant kids who don't understand the impact of their actions and need to show how brave and daring they are to their friends. So brave to throw an egg at a stranger ... Yes, that's how pathetic they are.

Don't let it get you down. And well done for getting out there in the first place and getting some exercise in.

Bearfriend xx

Katie said...

OH, Tamzin....that's awful! What absolute jerks!
I know it's hard to do, but try not to take it personally. They don't know you, and if they did, they'd never have done that.
Obviously, they are just stupid morons who don't have the intelligence to contribute to our society, but are the dregs who only know how to drag it down....to their level.

Holistic Health Coach-Tri Mom said...

Im so sorry that happened to you...but dont let those jerks get you off course. You are wonderful, brave, and beautiful even with egg on your trainers.

VRaz60 said...

Kids have no idea how cruel they can be. They simply look at behavior like this as fun. No consequences, not a care in the world. Dumb little shits!!

(((Hugs))) to you.

karen@fitnessjourney said...

Karma is a boom-a-rang. Those little brats will get theirs. Honestly, I'd like to throttle them myself.

You are a good person, please don't let the actions of a child make you feel bad about yourself.

Heather said...

F* 'em. They have no power over you.

Paula Rodriguez said...

That really pisses me off. I'm so sorry that happened to you. Kids can be so freakin mean. I've had someone laugh at me while jogging very slow, and mouth something as they drive by. At first I was embarassed, but then I thought its their problem. Not mine.

I'm so sorry that happened to you. (((hugs))). Please don't let this deter you from getting out there. Damn that makes my blood boil.

CactusFreek said...

I know how you feel. I got picked on a lot for being fat when i was younger and now when someone says something to me, i feel like that hurt kid again. [allthough now i retaliate and shame them]

But are you sure it's because you are fat that they did it? [coz you're not that big y'know] You weren't closest? The only one staring? The only woman? The kid of someone you've pissed off?

Regardless of why, the point is you feel like crap about it. Use those feelings and take them to the gym and work them off untill you can't see thier faces anymore. THAT will make you feel awesome!


Deb said...

Some kids are rotten little brats. I understand your reaction though. I'm pretty sure I would have felt the same. But don't let those moronic little punks get you down. You are so much better than they are.