Thank you for stopping by to perv on my blog, as I fight myself to change my old habits and make new ones to get fit. I don't get it right all the time, but I'm still here and I'm still working at it.

Tamzins Double Dog Dare You Ticker!

My homage to the 14lbs that I lost on Allan’s DDDY Challenges. A watering can for the vast oceans of water that I have learned to drink and love every day.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Rude awakening Weigh In

right... I often wonder how many times I'm going to go through this before the message sinks in...

Weigh In - 273.2lbs
UP 2.4lbs

This morning I didn't have my normal BM, so that is a factor...however this is more of a factor:

Friday - Latte, pudding, mini chocolate bars, latte, cookie, entire bag of terra chips, 2 dinners...
Saturday - Latte & cookie, Pumpkin loaf, bag of full fat microwave popcorn

Honestly, *shakes head*, is it a surprise anymore that the seemingly small accumulations of bad eating add up like this? REALLY TAMZIN. How can you think that daily cookies and chocolates are going to be cancelled out by some walking. Its not going to happen.

The bodies annoying tendency to put on weigh easier then shedding it is an annoying FACT. Its a fact. We are predisposed to adding fat.

Some other facts.... I am not working out hard enough to eat cookies and lattes daily.

more later.


Natasha said...

I have gone through many days like that (yesterday included). I'm interested in hearing your thoughts about why you think you do it. I understand the frustration with it. You spend all week doing great and then blow it in a couple of days. I've been racking my brain about how to stop the cycle.

Tamzin said...

Truely...I've been sitting here thinking about it all morning.

How am I able to tell myself that I'm doing "good" and therefore that one treat isn't going to change anything. But it really just snowballs into days of eating badly.

Although , there is a more selfdistructive theme as well. Since there are times when I know I shouldn't but I do it anyway. Ug.

Those little monsters that tell you it doesnt matter - you'll be fat no matter what - might as well have a cookie... and of course, I do.

I also have no other system of reward...there is NOTHING that I love more, or is as cheap as a food treat that I can replace that with. Magazines, massage, you name it... I have no $2 thing that I can buy that will make me feel as good (than as bad) as sugar.

Also...self control...where the hell is that? Am I really that weak? It does surprise me on occation that I can stand there and order a cookie and I use those techniques "do you really want it" etc... and I say, Yes!

hum...crazy crazy crazy. Denying myself something is never as rewarding as giving myself something I suppose that this is the heart of hte issue.

Losing weight has not yet become a big enough - or exciting enough reward for me.

Clearly...I have a lot of thinking to do this week.

BumbleBeeRunning said...

I don't think it makes you weak- it's not easy to lose weight, and it takes more mental work than one might think at first. Don't beat yourself up over a bad week- learn from it, move on and do better next time! It'll get easier!

Jemima said...

Hey, I've been following your blog for a while and I just wanted to say I'm so sorry you're finding things tough at the moment. My problems with food and weight are different, but I have experienced when I was younger the compulsive urges to eat that completlely overhwhelm any good intention.. Despite what the scales said this morning, you are doing really well and your determination to keep going really shines through this blog. Keep it up!

Crystal said...

I definitely know how those days go. I have been there. The important thing is to not beat yourself up and learn from it.

Deb said...

I feel your pain, sister. This weightloss thing ain't easy. No way. No how.

Someone famous (I don't remember who) said that success is mostly a factor of attrition...meaning those who keep trying will succeed when others give up.

Keep fighting!

Jen, a priorfatgirl said...

uuhh...I didn't get past the "I didn't have my regular BM"

HAHAHAHA...I'm not laughing at you, I'm more amused at how comfortable we are with each other! And how honest we can be! Thank you for being you and not holding back - you are awesome!

Anonymous said...

we seem to gain that false sense of this won't hurt me, I've worked out..until we quit counting how many this won't hurt things we've eatin..

You can beat this!