Well last night... I pulled out of the dinner... I gave a lame-o excuse about having papers to rummage through and chores to do around the house and I got a really rude answer back from the friend...
She was right - I was avoiding their house - just not for the reasons that she thinks... and I can't tell her the real reason because she is sooo sensitive about their lifestyle at the moment that it would have caused even MORE issues.
It felt good to know that I was going to get some things done around the house, AND eat a good meal... and I did go home - ate my chicken, yams and broccoli...however, I did feel various stages of mad, sad, guilty and angry all evening about it. ARG...
This making good choices is hard. :(
Today's food was okay. I've been starting my mornings with a cuppa All Bran and skim milk before work... indeed fibre is an interesting thing!! ha still not getting enough greens in... and I have a massive bowl of fruit that I haven't even TOUCHED... I know what I'm going to be eating this weekend.
right! Off home. This no computer BS is not fun. I don't get to look at what everyone else is doing :(
on a good note - I should be down in the US of A by Oct 1. I finally was contacted for my interview with the embassy and am one step closer to the visa!!! HURRAY!!!!!!