ARG

okay - Moday weigh in was epic fail. 275lbs. ARG

I don't know... this bloody shit is hard...I occationally feel that although I've not been totaly dilligent I have put in a meiocre effort ... therefore, could I not get at LEAST a mediocre result.. you know, 1/4lb or something?? But it starts to feel that either I go all in/hair straight back/monastic effort and lose weight, or anything less then that and the effort is wasted and I gain. I don't know... I'm not in my happy place thats for sure.

Don't mind me I've been sore and crabby since my last post.

The good:
Walking to work from the friends house is lovely. Its 2.5km and there is a very inconvenient bus route - so I don't use it. Hurray.

Walking home is good as it is really on the route that I typically walked and I can get in a good 4-6km if I want to...or more, but 2.5km in the morning and 6km in the evening (which I did on Monday) was pushing it.

ug....I just deleted about 2 paragraphs of my complaining about life and how sucking it is. MUST STOP.

I`ve spent the better part of the last hour thinking about all the places that I could go to get sweets. I`m not even remotely hungry. I`m just tired and sore and cranky and I WANT SUGAR. bleck, this is such a horrible feeling. I`m trying to distract myself with blogging to keep me out of the car.... I need to do laundry and I don't have any detergent... but I know that this is really the basic front that I`ll give myself to ``go out`` so that I can ply myself with ice cream or something chocolatey.

Anyway - enough for today. I will do a flurry of things around here and I need to have a shower so I`ll do that and hope its good enough. Another 30min and 500ml of water and I should be good. If not...I`m getting a coffee at the Starbucks....and a brownie....

ARG