I've been naughty about not posting - but it has been a tremendously difficult couple of weeks in terms of work-life etc. I've been doing okay on my goals (more like a 2.5 stars out of five), but the eating has been my downfall, and I've been hovering in the same area 271-275 for the last month or more... No forward progression.
I once again missed my goal for the 250's for May... clearly. However I'm not going to get too upset about it. I do want to start making better progress, but at this point in time, I'm not sure that I have the energy to make any more changes/goals/efforts. Sad, but true.
I have started playing sport again - which I think will make a difference, but that is about the extent that I have for extra activities at the moment.
This last week has been difficult.
Moving & packing & Organizing
I have a bunch of my stuff that a friend who is moving into a new place this weekend is liberating from my home to his. I have 4 weeks left in the condo and have to start getting it all ready for my exit!
The final papers for my immigration to the United States went in - for anyone else out there that has done this, I'm sure you will agree, that this was the singular most stressful thing that I have ever done. The forms, checking all the papers and documentation, worrying that you have missed something... ug. My husband is already down in TX and I'm stuck up here waiting waiting waiting. Its emotionally draining, but the good part is that its nearly over.
My fathers father died last weekend. I've been estranged (by my own choice for a number of years, although I would occationally see my grandmother but it was strained to say the least). He was a b*stard whom I never liked, but that didn't make it much easier. Its made me think about my family history and all roughed the water on what was a clear smooth lake. Not that I regret my decision, infact I still totally stand behind it and know that it was the best thing that I ever did for myself.
I work in the tax department of an accounting firm, needless to say that this month (tax returns both Canadian and US) deadlines were here and that means lots of stressed busy people and rushed work time and of course....more deadlines... etc etc etc.
Anyway - I feel like a total "excuse machine". Then look at this and realize that this is lots, but honestly....does the sum of my life really give me the license to eat cupcakes and chocolate bars?? I mean, I do, and feel like I can because of A, B & C...but that is a fault with me... that I eat to medicate my stress. The I give myself hell over being so mean to myself about this since I actually have not done that badly....
ANYWAY.... enough of that. Here is the synopsis of my last week and a bit.
Breakfast & walking to Work:
Good - I've been walking to work every morning and eating breakfast still! Yay!!
This weekend past I got in more then an hour of walking on both days. Which was great. Less adventurous though and more of the same… have to think of some ways to switch it up.
Bed at 11.30:
Bed time has been sneaking later and later! But I have had more earlier nights then not, and much better then before. I have been doing some reading and last night was a late one as I finished off reading World War Z (for the second time! Great book).
I've started buying lunches again - pure laziness. Dinners have been good though, and I have yummy stuff in the fridge. I've made a promise to myself to get the food in the cupboards eaten up and I'm making a dent. Must carry on with it. I soooooo wanted to order in dinner last night - I was tired and cranky from moving and packing the furniture up in my little condo. I wanted pizza…but I had so.
I've totally let this one slide. However now I'm back playing some recreational sports its should get better…or at least, I'm going to be stronger anyway. I'm pretty much sore everyday now and our first game is this weekend.
Really…not nearly enough….not nearly enough at all.