Wednesday FULL of WIN!

I started to fade today...and had thoughts of burgers dancing through my head....so just before lunch and I did this:

From: T--------- -------
Sent: Wednesday, March 17, 2010 11:02 AM
To: T--------- -------
Subject: TODAY I WILL

NOT GET A FATTY LUNCH. I will eat the lunch that I have here.
Because I’m better than fat.
Love Me~

Ate my lunch and it was great (BNS mac&cheese, lemon yogurt and a plum). This afternoon I considered getting a treat - and instead ate my Coconut Larabar. AlsoYum.

After work I had to pick up some bits for dinner.... and that put me right in the middle of one of my worst areas...The Grocery store - all by myself...the perfect time to get chocolate so that I can eat it in the car and NO ONE KNOWS.... (but me - and all of you of course). Grocery stores are a terrible place for me - those ROWS of chocolate bars while you are standing there checking out, alone in the car to scarf down the chocolate like a starving wolf....

I managed to resist!~ I bought two packs of Extra gum instead (a la Biggest Looser). Woot!

However, ice cream was in the basket.

:( NOT GOOD...not good at all!!

I drove home thinking about the ice cream...and when I got home I put it in the freezer - telling myself that I would have some tonight and then throw the rest out. Then 15min later I went into the kitchen, took it out of the freezer and.... I threw it in the garbage. $5.00 is not worth me eating 1,000+ calories of ice cream. So right NOW there is a tub of ice cream melting in my garbage! YAY!!

Also.... my main surprise today was my daily Weight In. I hopped up on the scales and expected to see something other than this:

290.6lbs

No change from yesterday, that was a very nice surprise!

near miss!

Last night I had a near miss with some really destructive eating behaviors.... I was totally dying to go and "get" food... Indian, Chinese food, stop for chips and salsa... which would have turned into some very bad binging on ice cream , candy and salty foods for sure.

I made it home... paced around... made a PB&J and a PB&banana sandwich's...albeit on white buns, but it was better then what I had in mind.

Then paced around.. totally thinking about food... food food food food....

So I did 2 loads of laundry, picked up a bit, picked some zits in the mirror, plucked my eyebrows a little, and stared at my flabby belly in an attempt to stop myself from feeding it more...shook it...that didn't do the trick

Still felt like getting in the car and going to the grocery store to get some "cottage cheese" (YEAH RIGHT! who was I trying to fool) so I ended up getting a bowl of All Bran with milk and about 3 cups of red grapes. That pretty much stemmed the tide. Nothing like some fibre to make you forget that you were hungry.

All in all I was pretty happy that I managed to get through, but it was a good reminder why I can not keep junk food in the house - and that I still have a LOT of work to do on the mental side of losing weight. *scoff* Which is funny, since I've done more gaining then I've done losing so far... but a girl can dream!


EDIT::
I'm off for the next 4 days for the husband shag-a-thon. If that doesnt help me then nothing will! haha

Also - the tag was supposed to be a girl can "dream"... cream is funnier, so I'm going to leave it! :D happy weekend all.