Thank you for stopping by to perv on my blog, as I fight myself to change my old habits and make new ones to get fit. I don't get it right all the time, but I'm still here and I'm still working at it.

Tamzins Double Dog Dare You Ticker!

My homage to the 14lbs that I lost on Allan’s DDDY Challenges. A watering can for the vast oceans of water that I have learned to drink and love every day.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

The Good, The Bad and the Focus

Well... I've been really just living moment to moment, and in truth - no walking, not tracking calories and not drinking enough water and looking after myself with any real care.

Stepped on the scale and it was 300.2lbs.

So this has really digressed into a "how to gain weight" blog.

This was after I went through my amex statement and realized that in 6 weeks we spent $1,200 on EATING OUT. Can you fucking believe that. UN REAL...

The husband and I had a sit down and really discussed that we need to change. Its a sad world when you waffle about getting a new $600 gym membership - but will chow down on 1200 dollars worth of food at restaurants???

That is coupled with other excuses that we come up with. Like, the husband doesn't like to work out after dinner/eating. But out life is really unsupportive of early evening work outs. So, I am going to have to start going on my own because I don't give a shit anymore that he doesn't want to go.

His life has been getting astronomically better since I got here and mine has gotten astronomically worst. He has lost 20lbs, I have gained 30lbs. I just can not live like he can and I need to get moving. So I will be doing these things for me. And in turn that will be for him ... because I have been one cranky beatch for the last couple of months.

Okay. Here we go.

The Bad
now am 300lbs
spent too much money on food
stopped exercising

The Good
realized that change is needed
talked to husband about it
got a new gym membership
Tuesday was my last day at my old job - star my new one on June 1. Clean slate!

The Focus
Get to the gym 4x a week
eat at home
take healthy lunches/pack night before
drink more water
get back to blogging.

also... I've decided that I am not going to use Facebook from Mon-Friday. I can get on FB on weekends and catch up - and that's it. I've been wasting an hour or more at night looking at Facebook... I could have been to and back from the gym in that time. I think my friends will forgive me for letting this one slip.


Dani @ WRW said...

I love it when people write posts that are about proactive change. It's inspiring to see people admit their weaknesses, face them head on and then make a plan to get to a better place.

How spot on are you about the fact that people thinking a gym membership is expensive but never thinking twice about how much is spent on eating out, etc?! Thank you for that! I refuse to feel guilty about my gym membership another second!

Best of luck to you with your new plan. I look forward to your progress! =)

Katie J said...

Oh Tamzin :( I feel your pain. The good news is you caught it now and can nip it in the bud and move forward. The future is yours my dear and you are going to start kicking some major ass. I can just tell and I can't wait to see you succeed! xoxo

spunkysuzi said...

Good for you on getting back in the game! I know you can do it :)

Anonymous said...

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Laryssa said...

Tamzin, sorry to hear about the weight gain but I'm happy that you've realized you need to make a change and are going to make the effort to change.

Isn't it amazing how much money we spend on eating out?? It surprised my husband how much money we had leftover after every pay period once we stopped eating out. It's astonishing!!

Good luck!! You know we're here to cheer you on and support you!!

VRaz60 said...

It's not easy getting back into the groove, but you can do it. I was amazed about what we spent where, as well. A few years ago, our credit card started itemizing our charges, it was a real eye opener...not in a good way, either.

Friend of the Bear said...

Hi Tamzin. Since I started my blog - last aug - my weight has continued to rise, not fall.

I think I've turned things around in the last week or so because I just reached breaking point with it.

Sometimes it has to get that bad before you have the head of steam there to turn it around.

Great idea to spend less time on computer and more time exercising!

Good luck.

Bearfriend xx

Friend of the Bear said...

PS Not trying to sell you anything but it's $45 a month lol

Bearfriend xx

anne h said...

Well, long-time blogging buddy,
It seems there's alot of that going around.
Every day is a clean slate, in a way.
Even it could be a clean slate at 3 pm of a so-called messed-up day!
It really is all good!

Deb said...

I think it's great you are going to go to the gym by yourself. Workout buddies are great if they help you GET to the gym. But when they become a reason to NOT go to the gym. Well, that's no bueno. I know you are fairly new to where you live. Maybe you'll meet some like-minded people at the gym.

tena said...

Hey, Tammy! Checking in to see how the new job is going. Hope all is well with you.

I've been up and down with my diet lately and sometimes I think I'm hopeless. But a friend of mine at work who is also very overweight was just diagnosed with Type II Diabetes and I've been borderline before. Now she has to do all the blood checking and logging of food and taking new meds - scares the h*ll out of me. Kinda makes me see the reality of it all.

Anyway, email me anytime if you just need to chat. Tena