the fat came back....

the very next day,
the fat came back,
she thought it was a goner.
But the cat came back;
it just couldn't stay away.
Away, away, yea, yea, yea....


I haven't even dared to step on the scale. I will have to do that soon.

Here are the things that I am doing:

1. I now have a date with a friend to meet at the park on T/Th for a 30 min jog.
2. I am back drinking my water. Trying to get back up to 5L a day
3. I have a thursday night (post run) date to do weights.
4. I am going to make a commitment to go to one step/cardio class a week at the gym.

I took all last week off and I totally renno'ed the bedroom and master bathroom. New paint, furniture, cleared out a BUNCH of old shit, 5 bags of clothing donations, shoes, bags. You name it. The bedroom looks amazing now. And I had a massive week of exercise. Bending stooping sweeping, rubbing painting. My shoulder and neck are totally locked up now.

My eating has been RUBBISH though, and that is what has packed the weight on. I'm guessing about 10lbs.

Anyway, that is the cliff notes on my last few weeks. Time to get back into blogging and losing. Enough time piddling about feeling sorry for myself and how hard it is to lose weight. Its hard being fat. Time to get out. Spring is here, the sun is out. Make some changes.

Weigh in day!

omg. I'm so far behind. I'll have to give a quick catch up and then its on with the new week.

Weigh in: 285.4lbs
Down .6lbs

This last week has been a complete shit show of off and on again tracking, not managing my water and full on careless eating.

I was well over my 1950 calories on most days. I have been eating out and not bothering to really count what is going in. Happily, I've been walking and getting in "most" of my water. I know there are good and bad times, but this was not fun.

Being careless with my weight is a slippery slope that can easily pull me down into a deep pit. I'm NOT going to let that happen. Constant vigilance.

So there - Tamzin - you had a bad week. You ate garbage and shit. Did you like it. No, you did not. So, get on top of pre planning and stop the last minute "starving" eating and poor choices. My husband is to be congratulated though - he stopped me from eating fast food this weekend three time. That was really a help.

Right. Today is a day off for me. I'm heading out to the park to go walking.

Tracking Calories

Oh my it is beautiful outside. I took a short drive and spent most of my lunch hour at the park today. Just wandering in the sunshine and catching up with a couple of Canuck friends on the phone.

I was going to get a coffee at Starbucks, but there was not a single spot to park so I left and had my water and enjoyed myself without the coffee! :)

Back at the office with arse in chair. Today has been crazy busy - deadlines...why why why can the stuff only get done ON the day and not in the weeks before when I sent all this crap out? Its Friday people... lets try and enjoy ourselves instead of making it so hellish.

Mostly over now anyway. Tonight we are headed out for dinner to one of my favorite salad places. I can't wait! They are huge and Delicious. Tomorrow morning I have a big walk planned. Nearing 4 miles this time I think. The weather is going to cool off a little for the weekend, which I like.

Food is going good today. My tracking on my spreadsheet is going okay - I am just so busy recovering from the holidays....

wait ......

that is a big FAT F*CKING LIE!!! I'm feeling comfortable and not bothering to track as much. Right. That has been identified properly now. And I shall be doing my updating asap!! This is not the time to fall off and forget how I got to here. Here being the place where I am losing weight and enjoying life... not getting fatter again. DANGER DANGER!! My alarm has been triggered!!

Back...to tracking!! I'm behind on water today as well. Ah ha!... this is the Friday of self analysis!

Alright. Weekend...here I come. I can't wait to get out in the fresh air!!

Christmas Office gifts....

and so it begins.....

Because we spend so much money our vendors feel it necessary to send the chiefs here gifts at the holidays. Yesterday morning a giant box arrived to my boss from Harry & David.

There is all kinds of treats in there and people swooped in to pick through and gawk. I encouraged them to take and eat as much as possible (after swiping a pear for myself).

However, my resolve weakened by the afternoon and I ate 2 truffles.

Last night VISIONS of these things danced through my brain. I looked at my spreadsheets...calculating...plotting...licking my chops at the thought of adding more to my diet and removing other things to balance my calories.

This morning, before I was even half way through my first coffee, the staff were here opening the box, rummaging through and eating.

It made sad and angry. That is how I used to be. Grabbing and eating as much as I could. Able to justify my behavior with all kinds of excuses. Only to be filled with regret and emtpy promises to lose the extra 5lbs gained over that holiday.

Now... I'm not going to cheat myself out of my health and my goals for some candy. So I'm turning my back on this mound of sweets. I had my indulgence yesterday and my life wasn't miraculously transformed into the happiest days of my life.. it was just some chocolate.

Its not magic, Its not happiness, Its not a hug, Its not a walk in the park with a loved one.

Back in the Game

So much to blog about after a month off. So I'm going to break it down into a couple of categories.

First of all I just want to say that I'm starting to feel like my weight is the only thing that defines me anymore. I need to get out of this mode.

1. time off/home/emotional eating (mostly whining)

2. fitness done/undone
3. horrific photo
4. new meal plan/calorie counting
5. weight in/biggest loser/ranch

1. I have been away for 2 week in my hometown looking after my mother after her hip replacement surgery. I have a tenuous relationship with her at best and she is not easy to deal with, especially when she is feeling unwell. I am also argumentative, stubborn and occasionally spiteful. This is a very volatile combination. I was on my best behavior for about 3 days before the first major eruption.

I often feel very taken advantage of with her , Yes, she did pay for my and my husbands tickets to come up there and look after her.... with her points program (read here the MOST inconvenient flights for us ever). She fails to acknowledge that her "gift" cost us about $600 in airport parking, baggage fees (she told me to "pack light"... pack light we are coming for 12 effing days...), and an overnight at a hotel in Seattle. It cost us 12 vacation days from work. And the 12 days worth of hotel charges ($1,750) since she is in a one bedroom condo now with no where for us to stay.

Needless to say I was unimpressed when I was told that I was on a holiday at her expense... especially since we were cooking, cleaning, shopping and carting her about for that time.

Also I became an all consuming vacuum for food as I vainly tried to eat my way into a coma of unfeeling. My stomach is literally in knots right now as I re-live this. Emotional eating is on my list of things to get taken care of. I have to stop feeding myself to death.

2. While we were at home I did manage to get out and do some exercise, we did a number of long walks. Nothing really hard on the body. But it was needed and good for the soul. But I've stopped my morning work outs and I've been doing some walking, but once again. Nothing hard enough to really get my heart rate pounding and make a difference.

All the good that I have done, has now been undone. Its very frustrating and occasionally it is overwhelming. You know ... why me, why is this so hard, why can't I do this, why is food so tasty, why don't I say no.... All that stuff that I use to stuff food into my gob.

3. I participated in a fun sporting activity this weekend. It was a highland games competition - we were being judged and recorded for places/prizes. I had a woman tell me that since I loved the trophy's so much (it was a cool block of wood with the place burned into it), that she would give it to me.....

It was one of those moment where I saw myself through her eyes. Clearly, she thought that I was too fat, weak, incapable etc to be able to win it fairly. Then I saw this photo published of me and I understood why she thought that.

ps. I won third anyway... so there! HA!! My one small victory of the last month.

4. However this photo has now become my desktop picture, so that I can remind myself where I am right now.

I've decided to go back to calorie counting. Which is really the only way that I have been able to constantly lose weight and manage myself. I don't like how much time it takes and the drudgery of doing it. So, I'm making changes.

For the next 2 weeks I am going to eat exclusively the My Fit Foods. Breakfast, Snack 1, Lunch, Dinner. Snack 2 and 3 are going to be fruit, yogurt or a kashi bar. Then for 5 days we have a friend in town visiting, so it will be off for dinners but ON for bfast, lunch and snacks. Then for the following 2 weeks back on the same full day plan.

After that I will see how it is going and get a new plan hammered out.

5. Biggest loser is on again and I do love watching it. However this year I'm SERIOUSLY considering going to the ranch in Utah. In fact so serious that I'm surfing their website and looking at times that I might be able to go. You know... its $1200 for a week (about), and I've wasted 10x that amount on food, restaurants, movies and shoes I don't wear. I am NOT going to balk at spending that kind of money on my health anymore.

So there you go. I think that is MORE than enough for a first post back. :)

One foot in front of the other

Blarg... I'm having a tough couple weeks. Pulled up my socks, well packed them up and took them to the office - had a weights workout on Monday and then managed to get in a walk after work today.

Slowing slipping into better habits again.

The M&M bug struck again today - luckily no cash helped me with that battle. I now have a full can of diet coke in my desk drawer. Whenever I have a craving for it I just pull the drawer open - look at it and that pretty much does it for me! ha! Funny how the brain works.

Slowly plodding ever onwards! Water is getting better as well.

Wednesday...here I come!

WI today - 293.4lbs

My dogs are barking!

A bit of a break and lots of good ol' excitement at the Tamzin Ranch.

Trip to San Antonio was great - food was terrible and the hotel gym was packed. The Husband had to get to work so I never got in my Wednesday run sadly. I thought that my planning was solid, I just didn't expect that all the machines in the hotel gym would be in use. Silly me. :(

Food on the road was good, brought lots of water, fruit and jerky (salty...and I'm pretty swollen! but drinking lots of water). I was over in calories on Tuesday & Wednesday, but Monday and Thursday were under calorie days. Hoping that this will give me some balance through the weekend.

I got the starting date for my new job while in San Antonio, the call was Tuesday afternoon and I started Thursday/Today!!!!!! Which was a little bit tight for my liking, but how can I say no to the $$ and suggest a day later? We got in late Wednesday night, and basically got home, dropped the bags and went to bed.

Today was good - but let me tell ya... 4 months in runners and flip flops did not prepare my feet for a day in heels. I forgot what nearly 300lbs can do in a shoe! I have a large blister on the ball of my left foot...riiiight where the toes meet the foot pad. Needless to say, I can hardly walk now and I am going to be incapable of getting in my run tomorrow morning. Gerrrrr.

This is everything that I hate about being under prepared for this. I've been procrastinating since I got the offer, and now.... my fitness is paying for it. Which was exactly what I DIDN'T want to happen.

So this I promise. I might be in a mid-week slump, and not getting my runs and goals... but this is just one week and this is not going to be the way that things are for the rest of this month. Tonight I sat down and entered in all the last three days of calories, and I'm not going to stop that (cause I know Suzi would hurt me!). This weekend I'll be getting back on track with running, and figuring out a pattern that works for me.

Sad little time to perv on your blogs in the last few days, so I know I'm missing some interesting things. Will check on y'all soon!


Also!! Shout out to one of my commenters CactusFreak! I have been too busy to get to your blog but I will! And they suggested that I post a note about how good I feel after running so that in the mornings I have some notivation to get up and going. I LIKE IT!!!! And it shall be done.

RAWR!

right... my gawds, this WL thing is really kicking my ass.

You know, months and months ago I was lamenting how great it would be to not have to go to work, and stay home, and "cook" all my meals, eat right, go to the gym... yadda yadda yadda...

well here I am. All freshly moved to the US, no job, husband at the office all day and a world of exercise dvd's... yet no motivation to do them. RAWRRRRRR

Regardless, over my stomach bug from last week and now I need to get started on getting back into my routine of yoga in the mornings, and getting some more things going for the evenings.

Activity:

Saturday - gym for 30 hard minutes on the elliptical
Sunday - 1 hour of hard housecleaning
Monday.... tbd....

Food:
This has been getting better... more a function of the kitchen being CLEAN!!! HURRAY... we now have a great place to cook and prep food for dinners. I baked chicken and have made a few dishes now. We are eating out less and less, and that is great news. Now we need a better routine for the rest of life and things will start to fall into place.

Okay...that's all for today. Back in the saddle.

Catch up & a Daily Goal

Thursday was pretty uninteresting.

Bfast:
Oatmeal Pancake (plain)
Banana
Clementines x2
Coffee
Lunch:
Large Falafel Pita with lots of veggies and humus
Snack1:
8 small chocolate Easter eggs
Snack 2:
banana
Clementines x2
Snack3:
4 slices turkey breast
Dinner:
6 small slices rye bread
5 oz mozzarella cheese
2T becel
1c Butternut Squash Soup
3 dill pickles

Dinner was… not great. I wanted grilled cheese and soup - I love the bread!!! I've noticed that I've been going a little more out of the normal with chocolate this last bit. I know that I shouldn’t but I still talk myself into it.

I need to get my butt moving more. I did manage to make myself walk the whole way home after work, the sun was out - so it was an easy choice to make. I love me some sunshine! I have to say that my body is still sore from the yoga class on Wednesday…even now I'm I'm sitting I can feel it in my shoulders. Tis a good feeling though.

Tonight is running - I've not been out running in so long now with being sick and the weather getting crappy…that I know its going to be a real struggle tonight. I'm still going to go and do it though!

Today my goal is to drink 2.5L of water before I leave the office tonight. So far... 600ml down 1,900 to go!

Yoga is easy *scoffs*

Yeah...Riiiiiiiight. That's what I thought before this first ashtunga (pose style) beginners class. It was bloody hard work! Not the "bring your blanket" Sunday yoga by any stretch.

Downward Facing Dog.... easy! This is "rest position" in all the books and shit. Well let me tell you - but the end I was having a hard time staying in the child's pose...which is about as close to laying face down as you can get! My wrists! My knees!! My gawd! No wonder yoga people look like they do. This should be interesting to say the least. I'm pretty much dying right now. My arms where shaking.

Sadly - there were a number of moves where my belly was in the way...I imagine that it will be for some time as I am neither very flexible, and that is where most of my fat hangs. I feel for the people who might have had to look upon that travesty this evening. But as our lady said to us, "this is not a competition, you have to honor your body for the work it did today so that it can be a better body next time". Interesting, I quite liked that thought.

Today was a victorious food day - I passed the McSammich area that is now the "treat place" that is now thankfully far far away from my desk and through a door (finally! out of sight out of mind)... and it was cleared off of all evidence of any McCrimes. I am not surprised - people here are like sharks in a feeding frenzy.

I had a good day of eating - not enough water - trying hard to work on that right now. Work is busy - but not crazy and I'm going to get some good zzzz's in tonight for sure.

I also managed to walk home 1km today as well.

Bfast:
1 pot activia yogurt
1 med banana
V-8 single serving box (50calories! hot damn!)
1 clementine
coffee with cream x2
Lunch (late - 1pm):
Sushi - 3 salmon sushi, 3 tuna sushi, 2 salmon sashimi, 1 tuna sashimi, 1 shrimp roll, 1 avocado California roll with lots of wasabi, soy sauce and pickled ginger.
Snack:
3 clementines (eaten throughout the afternoon)
coffee with cream
Snack1:
4 slices turkey breast
2 triangles laughing cow cheese
...yoga....
Dinner:
5 x oatmeal pancakes
1/2T becel
2T maple syrup

Water.... had 1l at the office today. BAD! I've had just over a liter now at home, so I'm one behind today. Need to get onto that again.

Weigh In Win

I know that I had a preemptive strike on the weigh in day at my new all time low (for blogging) at 269.8lbs. I am sad to report that this lasted only 2 days and was up from that this morning. HOWEVER, I don't care that I'm up from that day … today I'm down 2lbs from last Monday. WOOT

Weight - 271.8lbs
Inches - I promise that I will update inches tonight when I get home tonight.

I have my good lunch, I have my gym gear, I have my coffee, my water, and my breakfast all here. This is the start of a good week. I know it is, because I'm going to make it so!

I'm not ever Sooooo close to my first 10lbs lost! :) next week and I will have that goal met.

Sunday Successes

Today was a pretty darn good day all tolled.

Slept in and since it was snowy and cold and ugly...I didn't go. Bad me, but I made up for it.
Yoga this morning was good. We did some really great hip flexor work that I need to work on for sure! I got to have a steam after and a long hot shower!!! My fav.

Then I went and got groceries, did a quick sweep through the store - no list - which is not typically a good plan for me since thats when I tend to pick up "naughty things". But today was excellent - no treats.

On the way home I went to Starbucks for a coffee and then to subway for my lunch. I did 4 loads of laundry, cleaned up and then made dinner and lunch's for the next few days.

Eating was a solid 7/10 today, exercise was a 5/10 since I didn't do anything other then yoga. I'm going to pack my gym gear tonight to take to work (... no more excuses about lunchtime workouts). Water was excellent for a weekend day. I've had just over 3L now which is double my normal intake for a weekend.

Bfast:
2 oat pancakes
1T honey
1/2T becel
Lunch:
12" roasted chicken sub on whole wheat
lettuce, tomato, green pepper, olives, banana peppers, jalapenos
Ranch dressing (looked like about 3T even though I said "only a little)
****NOTE**** I decided that I would NOT get a pop and chips when I was in there, so I didn`t
Snack1:
2 clementines (yay I bought another box while shopping today
Snack2:
bag of microwave popcorn
Dinner:
1c quiona
2c chicken curry

I have these great bags of curry sauce that you just add to meat & veg and its awesome. I cooked the chicken in a little oil with some red onion, added 1 can chickpeas, 2c green beans, carrots, and yellow beans. It was total yum, and there is a couple days worth of leftovers.

Over and Out.

At the risk of jinxing myself

I jumped on the scale this morning and I weighed in at 269.8. I had to do it about 4 times for me to register that this was real. Left foot first.... then right foot first. Just in case it was a mirage.

I haven't been in the 260's in a looong time. And you know what - I was thinking that today I would go out for lunch... but nope. Not anymore - I'm going to eat the lunch I have and be happy and frugal and keep the habit.

I don't know if I've just jinxed myself by posting this, but I hope not. I'm excited to see what a good weekend of eating, proper rest and lots of water will do for my weigh in on Monday.

April 1 - goal weight is 259. You know - that actually seems attainable now with some work. Whereas before ...not so much.

I guess I need to post some new piccies too. This coming Monday I'll have to get out the camera!

Another Average day

Once again too much coffee at the office, not enough greens and veggies and fibre.

We have a new coffee machine and I think the novelty of getting a latte/cappichino is too much for me to resist! The only good thing is that they are damn small. About 5oz I would say. Also a spell of frugality has overtaken me and I did a calculation that I was spending over $100 a month on coffee. THAT.IS.NOT.ACCEPTABLE.

I didn't get in enough water at the office, but I'm doing my best now. However it was treat day and I did eat 2 mini Cinnamon buns. Not great.

Bfast:
1 oatmeal pancake
Snack1:
Coffee (lattes) x 4
Lunch:
1c BNS mac&cheese
1c mixed vegges and 1/2 tsp butter
Snack:
2 Cinnamon buns
office latte
Dinner:
4x oatmeal pancakes
1c raspberries
1T becel

So today's food has been pretty darn beige. Nary an apple, orange or clementine to be seen. Lunch was great - squash, green veg, whole wheat noodles, but I need to get some more veggies and good stuff in me. I'm just so not jazzed about eating salad right now. Not too sure what it is, but I have all the good makings in the fridge, but I just don't want to eat it.

Other then that - the "pancakes" are not the healthiest thing you can have - but not terrible. Or so I'm guessing actually.... lets see what the numbers say....

1c Bisquick (480 cal)
1c whole oats (480 cal)
1/2c egg whites (60 cal)
1c almond milk (40 cal)
2T ground flax seeds (60 cal)

This makes 6 pretty substantial pancakes. So that's 1120 cal / 6 pancakes = 187cal per.
little Pam spray in the pan and a couple of minutes of stove top work and they are done.

Well - I have to admit I thought that it would be a bit worse then that. :) Okay - time to drink the last of my water and head to bed!!

Ug.... no steam

Another shorty. Today I give 6 out of 10 stars. Breakfasts have been poor. Today I managed to chug some almond milk out of the container before heading in. Then it was sequential coffee's until noon. I need to get that sorted out - no breakfast is really bad news, metabolically and mentally speaking.

Lunch was chicken and rice (no time for greens to get packed in the morning). Another coffee and then out to the dental appointment, which ended up (annoyingly) being a consultation and not an official "appointment" where they did work. I ended up just going home after anyway.

I stopped in and got 2 feta and spinach spanicopita for early dinner. Then I made some oatmeal pancakes for second dinner. I made a couple extra for my breakfast tomorrow's breakfast.

I had lots of water today - 2.5L since I got home in the afternoon, so I'm quite pleased about that. Bed time now! Must get some zzzz's

In like a lion?

First off, let me just say that often the comments that you all leave on here are much more interesting then the posts themselves! :) And I thank you for your comments on my last post. All very true.

Giving up... that would be the failure....and I'm not there yet. I'm going to keep going and try to make better choices as they come at me - food, exercise, rest, enjoyment of life, weight management, nutrition and hydration.

Today was a quiet Sunday. I'm still recovering from my stretch of sickness but I got up for our running meet up. I sat and had a skim milk latte and a pumpkin muffin while they ran, and read my book. Had a quick socialize when they got back and then I was off to my yoga class.

Yoga is actually quite hard...once the class is over I start to feel how much I worked. I'm really enjoying it. I'm sore as can be, but its the good hurt!

Anyway - this is March. The dreaded February is done. Time for better choices, little by little until they become habits! Tonight for dinner I wanted to order pizza, I drove all the way home and thought about pizza. I got in the house, opened a tin of beans and poached two eggs. That was dinner. Ate it before I could pick up the phone.

Simple eh? One choice at a time now.

50/50 is not good enough

I just updated my weight on the sidebar(inches will be done tonight).... and this is an all new fail for me. Three weeks in a row gaining. Totally.Brutal.

Of the 14weeks that I've been blogging, 50% of the time my weight has gone down and 50% of the time my weight has gone up. The downs are more then the ups, but still, that just not good enough.

In 14weeks I could have healthily lost 28lbs, with an average of 2lbs a week - which is both reasonable, realistic and manageable. That nearly 30lbs!! COME ON TAMZIN... pull your head out of the feed bag!!

Right now I'm averaging a loss of .55 lbs a week. Not that this is bad is still moving in the right direction, but holy hell I could be doing miles better. I'm trying to imagine what 28lbs less would be like right now. It would be pretty effing sweet to be 25lbs lighter....instead of 7lbs.

Time to get goal setting again and start getting my lists... I also need to get my gym gear in a bag and to the office so that I can get in my lunchtime workouts again.

If I am going to lose 100lbs, then I'm going to have to start working a LOT harder then this.

WI day and a daily goal

Well... I wish that I had seen Tena's comment on my last post before I stepped on the scale this morning. +1lb. However I did not manage my morning constitutional before weight in, so that had to count for at least some of that! HA! ....two poop posts in a row, how delightful!

I have a headache, my mouth was dry as the sahara this morning and my muscles are sore and tight....hello I'm dehydrated. So....there for we have a daily goal, something that I have not done in a while....

Today's goal: pee at the office 6 times (or more). I'm through 500ml of water so far and I have plans to get through 3L today at the office. I'm going to be using up my share of tp thats for sure.

I will have another weigh-in tomorrow morning and see if I can mitigate some of the damage done over the "weekend of cheese".

PP Update::
2 down, 4 to go!
edit::
4 down and 2 to go!!
I kinda thought that 6 would be easy in a workday... I need to get busy drinking water! 1.5L done so far. I don't think that I'll be getting 3L done in the next hour...but I can do another 500 at least!
Edit::
5 down 1 more to go ... and 1.9L has been consumed! I will imagine that I will need one last trip tot eh bathroom before I get home. Hurray... this is like the first goal that I've set for myself that I've been able to accomplish! LOL!

Sunday Running!

8am rolled around pretty darn early for me, given my usual standard of sleeping on weekends. I know that I am going to be shattered tonight early since I didn't sleep well or for very long last night. BUT... I still got up and went to my run. YAY!

It was cool but the sky was blue already. My "group" was waiting for me when I arrived (bad me, I won't be late again I hate keeping people waiting) and we set out. 10 sets of 1min jogging and 2 minutes walking. With 2min of walking to start and finishing with about 10min of walking to our starting point. It was once again, quite enjoyable.

Katie, I'm not too sure where all these places are - but I run (and they have walking clinics too) through a store called The Running Room. They have a great website and are all over Canada and the US. The program is a Learn2Run - giving us the slow start, basics of care for your body, equipment and of course, a person to run you who keeps time and motivates everyone to keep going. I know that there are other similar things through other running stores, you should have a look in your area!

Our "instructor" is a 40year old lady who has been recovering from a massive car wreck in which she significant brain injury. She was telling us today about it on her run - it was inspirational to say the least. She had a 4 year old and 1 year old twins when she was hit on the hwy (without then in the car thank goodness) and was in a coma for 2 weeks. She then had to say in hospital for close to a year. She has weakness on her left side and had trouble with processing speech and speaking quickly, but is back in school and is totally mentally aware, not mentally slow, but slower speech.

Here is the kicker.... She is running her first half marathon in 3 weeks.

Wow. ummmmm My complains about being fat and not being able to run are pretty darn weak compared with recovering from something like that. She is a darling, very supportive and really keen to help everyone start on their running journey. She talked about how it helped her get motivated, move better. I really don't have any excuse that can stand up next to that.

The philosophy of their running is this. If you can not hold a conversation (slightly breathy) then you are running TOO HARD and you need to SLOW DOWN! I like that a lot. We also never leave anyone behind, if you are in front when the min run is done you walk back to the last person (although most of us never get that far ahead). The instructor runs with the slowest person so you are never alone running behind. Its a very supportive atmosphere that is conducive to enjoyment and the focus is on personal achievement instead of racing or trying to beat a time or other such nonsense.

Also, I can't believe how great I feel today, physically good, but also calm and really happy.


I bought groceries after the run and have the laundry half started/finished. I heaved all the food in the fridge when I got home (see picture). I'm going to be cooking and sorting into containers later into my little ziplocks and baggies, I'll post a post-organization fridge piccie too (for all you Fridge-P0rn loving perverts out there!)


1. Run. DONE - 3km
2. Groceries - DONE
3. Return movies - DONE (I even walked although I got another coffee!)
4. Clean kitchen
5. Laundry
6. Cooking and organizing food for lunches
7. Reading & Relaxing

Tena - becel is a marg here in Canada, not too sure if you can get it in the US. This is really quite nice actually. The link is to the one that I use (I have the lite one too) - it has extra virgin olive oil in it! Yum!

Monday Weigh-In

okay.... *drum roll please*......

Weight - 272lbs
Inches - 321.4

Fat Burned - 3Lbs
Inches shed - 2.7

I'm really really happy! AND I have a great lesson learned, now is the tricky part - I really NEED to pay attention to this lesson before I jump back on the bandwagon called "This is easy - I can eat what I like", and stay on the path called "Sensable eating on weekends and through the week shows me what I can do".

Regardless, I'm happy about both the inches and the fat!!

Inches Breakdown:
Neck - 16, Bust - 47.5, Ribs - 41.6, Waist - 47.7, Hips - 51.5, Left Thigh - 27, Right Thigh - 25, L.Calf - 18.3, R.Calf - 18, L.Bicep - 14.3, R.Bicep - 14.5
Total inches: 321.4

Well - thats all I have time to post right now - I just didn't want to make anyone wait any longer! I did enjoy posting my "fluffer" email earlier in the day though! teehee

More later. Dinner now.