Donut Day!

well... its treat day again... donuts and muffins. I looked in the kitchen and ... never even bothered to go in and drool over them. :)

VICTORY!

Its another crazy day as I try to get ahead to go away. I'm swimming against the stream at the moment, and I've not had enough water yet today... going to get some now. That will help a lot.

Tonight after work I'm going to get on the treadmill and sweat it up! Then ... holiday time.

WOOOHOOOO

Failing at Failing!

I spent today typing up the start to three or four epic posts. It was a busy day at the office so I never fully got through a single one of them. But I did note the theme that ran throughout them all.

Failure.

All I talked about was failure. It had other names of course, like difficult and hard, mostly followed by the word choice.

My hubby and I are going on a mini holiday - extended weekend starting Thursday. I wasn't even look forward to it because I'm so afraid of the bad choices that I "know" I'm going to make already....

In pondering, I decided that saying those things are like already allowing me to make the bad choices before I even given myself a chance to make the right choice....right?

Right! That's some weak-ass shit.

Today was a day of wants, I wanted more mocha lattes, I wanted muffins, I wanted ice cream, I wanted to roll around in sugar like a chicken leg in breadcrumbs. However...... I didn't.

I had my mocha in the morning, at lunch I got a call last minute from a friend in town to go to a lunch date - we met in the food court and I ate my good lunch. I also go the 'hairy eyeball' about it but I didn't bother to explain it to them. When I pullled out my container of strawberry the eye turned green! HA

I know that this coming long weekend is going to be harder then my normal routine....I'll have free access to all the food I can eat, and I'll also be doing indulgent things with the people that I love and enjoying them and their company and the food that comes along with it.

BUT....I am going to enjoy myself and I'm going to do it with moderation. I know that I will not eat as well as I normally do, but, I am not going to take this as a free-for-all four day feeding frenzy. I'm also not going to let one "slip" ruin the rest of my eating and send me into a spiralling heap of depressive eating.

That being said, I'm going to seek the lighter, healthier and most colourful options at every meal where I find myself challenged. We'll be getting good sausages from the butchers, but having home cooked omelets, I'll be getting the steak, but not the garlic bread. :)

I stepped on the scale when I got home tonight... still read 272. I was a little surprised to say the least, but also... empowered. There is still a way that I can have a regular life AND manage my food.

Monday Weigh-In

okay.... *drum roll please*......

Weight - 272lbs
Inches - 321.4

Fat Burned - 3Lbs
Inches shed - 2.7

I'm really really happy! AND I have a great lesson learned, now is the tricky part - I really NEED to pay attention to this lesson before I jump back on the bandwagon called "This is easy - I can eat what I like", and stay on the path called "Sensable eating on weekends and through the week shows me what I can do".

Regardless, I'm happy about both the inches and the fat!!

Inches Breakdown:
Neck - 16, Bust - 47.5, Ribs - 41.6, Waist - 47.7, Hips - 51.5, Left Thigh - 27, Right Thigh - 25, L.Calf - 18.3, R.Calf - 18, L.Bicep - 14.3, R.Bicep - 14.5
Total inches: 321.4

Well - thats all I have time to post right now - I just didn't want to make anyone wait any longer! I did enjoy posting my "fluffer" email earlier in the day though! teehee

More later. Dinner now.

Its a Secret!

I weighed in this morning and usually I tell what it was before I do my inches in the evening after work (Since I can't get up in time to do them in the morning).

However, I am NOT going to tell early this time! Muuuaahahahahhaha and you will have to wait to hear about it.

Food today is looking pretty good...mostly planned out, and I'm going to count my calories too.

Sunday List

I actually woke up BEFORE my alarm today. That, quite frankly, is amazing. I did lay about in bed until it rang anyway - but typically I would sleep until 11 or 12. Today I was up at 10.

Karen... this breakfast is in your honor!











Talapia (YUM), 2 small zucchinis, 5 mushroom all sauteed with oil spray with S&P.

I'm not feeling like going to the gym - my legs are a little tired from my running yesterday (but I'm posting that I'll go here so that I WILL).

Today's list:
Make grocery list; DONE
Gym (1 hour cardio); DONE (did 50min...but extra hard on the elliptical)
Coffee; DONE (coffee and muffin came out to $6.66....the muffin of the beast!! HAHAHA)
Groceries; DONE
Cooking/Food prep for the week; DONE
Living room clean sweep: junk off furniture, sweep floors, mop floors, get rid of all the paper garbage, put papers that need filing into the files; and MOSTLY DONE
Relax; DONE
eat dinner; DOING NOW
read; WILL DO
bed! WILL DO

Bfast:
Fish, zucchinis, mushrooms
1c Almond breeze
2T protein powder
Snack1:
1 med skim milk mocha
1 lrg cranberry bran muffin (of the devil)
Snack2:
1T cottage cheese (while making snacks for lunches)
1 lrg orange
Dinner:
2c mixed greens
6oz turkey deli meat
2T red onion
20 red grapes
2oz mozzarella cubes
2 radishes
1/2c snow peas
1 hard boiled egg
Dressing - 1T extra virgin olive oil and 1T balsamic vinegar
1 whole wheat pita - toasted
1tsp becel
Snack3:
1/2c plain organic yogurt
2T walnuts
1T blueberry wild honey (YUM YUM YUM)

Saturday activities

I've been giving this fat exorcism a go all day today! Be gone Fat Devil!!! *makes the sign of a fat cell over my belly*


Well after a good sleep last night (albeit too late into the Saturday morning *cough* noon), I got motivated and dressed after my bfast to go to the gym. 1hour5min on the treadmill and then a good stretch. I made a list while eating of all the things that I needed to get done and ... I did them ALL!

Now for tomorrows list...must get that done after I post this.

Gym was good - 1hour and a 5min cooldown on the treadmill. Loving my new runners. 10min walk warmup, 10min jog @ 3.6, 1min walk @2.8, 10min jog @3.6, 1min walk @ 3.0, 10min jog at 3.6(last two min were at 3.8, then the rest was walking at various speeds.

Ate my orange post workout and then off to Timmies for a early afternoon snack before heading out for my shopping and errands. Which I managed quite a few. Filled up on gas, went to the running room and registered a friend who is going to come on the clinic with me (weeee!!!).

Off to the shops for a new memory foam mattress cover, picked up a new shower curtain and some odds and sods for the house. I had a gift certificate for Chapers books - so I went over there to perv on books and to pick up the 3rd and 4th book in the George R.R. Martin Songs of Ice and Fire series (Storm of Swords and Feast for Crows.. I am a fantasy book super geek...so I don't know how I missed this series). I also enjoyed a coffee and a ginger cookie while wandering in book-heaven (and spying on people around me to see what they are reading!).

Then home to finish the most important part of today - my second workout....Housework!! I know that I needed to get a lot of the messy bits that are hanging about and cluttering up my mind, and boy did I get a lot done:

1. 3 loads of laundry including linens - made new bag with foam mattress;
2. Took out all garbage bins, empties, new bags in;
3. Hung new shower curtain, threw out old;
4. Cleaned toilet;
5. Organized recycling;
6. Dishes in the sink set to soak for later washing in dishwasher;
7. Dusted through the house;
8. Swept kitchen, hall and bathroom; and
9. Mopped kitchen, hall and bathroom (half by hand!).

Now I've heated up my dinner from last night -what I like to call my "posh dog food". I'm feeling much better about life in general, but also my struggles this last few weeks. I have some grocery shopping to do tomorrow and my food prep again. I'm all out of fruits and green veggies so I have to replenish the fruit bowl.

I also want to say thank you to all who commented, I've been bad about reading on everyone elses blogs (for motivation) and posting comments other then lots of "woohoos" and "good jobs" (man I suck hard at commenting). I think that I'll have more to contribute this coming week. so....Heres to fighting the evil fat!!

Water: 1.5L right now - I have another 1.5L that I will get through before bed.

Bfast:
1 pot activia yogurt
2 small slices rye bread
1T cashew nutbutter
1tsp strawberry jam
Snack1:
lrg orange
Snack2:
12 grain bagel
2T lite creamcheese
Snack3:
1 med skim milk half sweet mocha (NO WHIP!!!!!)
1 lrg ginger cookie
Snack4:
5 almonds


Dinner:
1c mixed wild rice
2c Tamzin's "Posh Dogfood"
1 pot yogurt
2 kiwi fruits

Posh Dog Food is:
1 yellow onion diced roughly
1 package Extra lean ground turkey
1/2 bag mixed frozen veg (carrots, corn, peas and beans)
1 package of taco seasoning
It freezes great - is tasty, and great for over rice in your lunch!

Fat for the Devil!

9 weeks into my blogging and I've lost 6lbs...that is .666lbs a week!!! No wonder I'm struggling, this is the fat of the devil!!! hahahhaha

I've got to get myself sorted out this weekend, all the extraneous stuff that life drops on me is no reason to flop over and cry (see all last weeks post). But my lack of preparation for the (predicable) unscheduled life things has been been my scapegoat for eating badly and not trying.

This weekend I'll do my fat fighting home work (get house, fridge and mind clutter free and ready for a new week) and try a little fat exorcism.


Bfast:
Coffee with creamers
Pot of activia berry yogurt
Green tea latte with skim milk
Snack1:
1c oats, 2T protein powder & 1/2c berries
Lunch:
6 small shrimp
3/4c mixed rice
1.5c Caesar salad
2T taziki (sp?)
1 diet coke
1/3 c pumpkin custard
Snack2:
1 cup Eating Right CousCous lentil soup
Snack3:
Orange
Dinner:
4oz Ground Turkey (with Taco seasoning)
1.5 Mixed veggies sauted
1c wild rice
Snack4:
1/2c 1% cottage cheese
20 grapes

Tonight - gym, home, eat, read, sleep!