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Thank you for stopping by to perv on my blog, as I fight myself to change my old habits and make new ones to get fit. I don't get it right all the time, but I'm still here and I'm still working at it.

Tamzins Double Dog Dare You Ticker!

My homage to the 14lbs that I lost on Allan’s DDDY Challenges. A watering can for the vast oceans of water that I have learned to drink and love every day.





Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Possibly the best food article I've seen posted on the "regular media" web for a long time.

6 Ways To Ease Food Addiction

Highlights:
  1. Smaller plates = smaller portions
  2. Lower the "sweet" volume
  3. Keep your hunger in check
  4. Work it out by working out
  5. Find other ways of coping
  6. Don't return to the scene of the crime

Do no harm

More water has been suiting me very well I have to say. Not like this is some sort of massive mystery…ohhh water the life force. But its still good to know that as I increase my intake of water I generally feel better and fuller, and happier. Not to mention that I'm getting more active again - so I need more. The scale moved downward again this morning, and I know that has a lot to do with my body being able to process the food that I'm eating more easily when hydrated.

I walked home 1km last night - had a bowl of cereal and then off to running. 6min run with 1 min walk between sets x3 - plus about 5min walking on either end for warm up and cool down. The run was good (my legs are feeling better), however the conversation that was had was much more interesting.

We ended up talking with our running instructor regarding her consultation with a plastic surgeon. She had been trying to get a recommendation for a tummy-tuck and liposuction. She carries her weight exactly like I do, all in the belly/front. However, she has had three children (one single and one set was twins). She is very active - goes to the gym regularly, runs 4 times a week, and had a part time job, goes to school and of course, all the mom and house stuff.

Needless to say she was shocked by the treatment that she received from the surgeon. He grabbed her belly, shook it, and then said to her, "I just can't believe how much mass is in there, that is SO MUCH FAT, you are so heavy" and then in disbelief told her how he was amazed that she could function and didn't have knee and hip issues. He then berated and belittled her for the next 15 minutes telling her that everything she said raised "red flags" to him and that she was "lying" about the amount of exercise that she did and how much food she ate.

He told her that she needed to be 110lbs (she is about 5'6, and overweight - maybe 180-190 at MOST…FAR FAR smaller then I am - but shorter as well) and that at her "SIZE" he couldn’t help her, she is "just too fat". Her sister was with her and the Dr. asked her weight. The sister is a normal sized 140lbs. He said, "see 140lbs and she has too much fat too, you both should be under 110". Brutal, just brutal.

She was so terribly upset by it all and frankly so was I. First of all - this doctor is supposed to be a professional, and not only that - it is his oath to do no harm. Honestly - what he did to her cause harm, mental harm. In the same way that someone who is fat get teased their whole life, ridiculed by family and friends and strangers and of course, herself. You would think, a man whose' job is dealing with lypo and tummy tucks (and implants!) would be more sympathetic to her plight. But he was a total bastard.

I told her that a doctor like that isn't really interested in the hard work. He wants boob-jobs at 7 grand a tit. Easy-peasey-lemon-squeezy surgeries that don't take 7+ hours of careful exhausting work. He wants to suck fat out of skinny women who think that one extra inch of "flab" on their backside is what is keeping them from the next millionaire husband, or why they are not happy at home.

Her case is more difficult surgery, painstaking - his carelessness and disdain would end up causing her more harm then the fat on her body. I told her to write a complain to the Medical board, as I really believe that kind of attitude from doctors is totally and unequivocally evil. It’s a pervasive attitude that should never be passed on to a patient. EVER. I'm not saying that this man has to think differently (although wouldn't that be nice), but he has to separate his personal opinion from his medical opinion.

I hope that she lodges a complaint about him. I don't know if anything will ever change… but if people don't start demanding to be treated with respect, no matter what their medical issue, then it will never happen. Sad, very sad.

Other then that, I'm eating well - trying to drink lots of water and think happy thoughts. Its treat day at the office - I had a blueberry bran muffin. I should have had my oatmeal, but I didn't. However I was proud to note that none of the donuts even seemed slightly appealing to me today. Yay for small victories.

Tonight is my Astanga yoga class. I'm going to try and get there earlier so that I can get all settled in and be ready for it without having to step over people to find a space.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Water and Weigh In

Water yesterday was very veeeery close to 3L. So I was happy with my effort. I felt better in the evening and although I woke up thirsty today - I knew that I had more water and my body was more....umm... lubricated. teehee! Anyway - Weigh in:

Weight - 271.4lbs
Down 0.4lbs.

I have my lunch here, I have my oatmeal here, and I think that I'm set for the day. The first thing that I did when I got to the office was fill up my water bottle. Good start to the day!

Tonight I'm going to run - its all planned out already. Its great to be moving in the right direction again. I'm scared that I won't make my goal of 259lbs on April 1....but, I think that I'm going to be pretty close! Must keep Working!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Water - Lesson Learned

Well...I' going to take today as another great day that I have learned from. Weigh In this morning... 273.8lbs.

OMFG!!

Okay - stood on the scale and though, "what the hell". As I rolled my mind though yesterday... Lets see, fatty breakfast, fatty lunch, and water...ohhhh that's right. For all of yesterday I had 1.5L of water. FOR THE WHOLE DAY. I ran, yogaed and ate lots... and I had 1.5L.

No wonder my weight is up. How is this poor body supposed to get rid of anything if it has no water to process the waste. Another superior lesson to be learned.

I know that I am not 3lbs heavier - my pants fit great this morning, they weren't tight to button up, so I know that this is really just junk my body CAN'T get rid of because I've deprived it of the most important thing that I can give it. Water.

I'm going to see what happens tomorrow and use that for my weigh in post, and see if I can help myself out some today. Goal 3L+.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Sunday Run

I got up and went for my run this morning - I was still sore as a sore thing - but I did it. :) 3km, but it was a tough one, and my legs were tight. But I still enjoyed myself.

I ate like shit today. I did. That same old same old. Oh I'm doing well - I can eat what I want bla bla bla. I have to get my head around that eventually.

2 oat pancakes pre-run, eggs bennie with copious amounts of coffee, then ginger fried beef (this was wok style - not the crunchy deep fried ones) on coconut rice for late lunching. Then I had 4 slices of rye toast with 2T of BP2 chocolate with 2T honey.

I don't know what I'm feeling now. I had made sweet potato chips for dinner but I burned the ever-living hell out of them and nearly smoked myself out of the house. So I've not eaten yet. I'm hungry - yet not. I've had 1.5L of water this afternoon - which isn't enough. I'm not too sure what to do about food. Nothing is appealing right now. Ug.

Well - tomorrow is weigh-in day. And no matter what. I have to say - I am pretty proud of my new pictures. I had no idea that 10lbs could make such a difference. I'm so blind to it in the mirror. To sit here and compare them and SEE the difference.

I'm looking forward to the next ten!!

The not great of the day - once I was done with my eating out with friends - I did sweet FA around the house - no cleaning, no packing, no groceries. I'm going to have no lunch for tomorrow....wait! I have some freezer foods. Great - will take that. :)

Woot! saved. Okay - now its time for sleeps!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

First 10

Today I weighed in at 270.4lbs, and since this afternoon I found batteries for the camera...and since I had time...and on Monday nights I have to "make time".... and since this is 10lbs down from my start.

I shall share with you my new photos.
Honestly - I didn't really think that there would be much of a difference... but I can really see it now. *BIG GRIN*
Never mind the effed up bits at the bottoms...I don't have a clue why they load like that on here. Its very annoying, but not that big a deal since the important bits are in the photos.



































































Friday, March 13, 2009

Run for your life!

Mizfit...you are going to be SO PROUD! :)

Tonight we ran 6min on and 1 min off... 3 times. with 5min walk at the start and 10min at the end.

and......I LOVED IT!

I'm sore as a *bleep* right now, but it felt amazing while we were out there. We went up a HUGE hill and then down a HUGE hill and I was puffing like a steam train and going super slow, but I did it. All of it! And I feel quite proud of myself.

Earlier today was dreading the run, and now, I'm craving my Sunday run and its still Friday!

also.....I got noticed today! I've not been to running class for a while and my instructor was running behind me and yelled out. "Hey, you've lost a LOT of weight!"

teehee! that felt great. Especially since she was looking at my jiggly butt (clip include a swearing squirrel and a half naked lady obsessing over her butt, also swearing....just so you are not surprised! not suitable for work or children)