The Good, The Bad and the Focus

Well... I've been really just living moment to moment, and in truth - no walking, not tracking calories and not drinking enough water and looking after myself with any real care.

Stepped on the scale and it was 300.2lbs.

So this has really digressed into a "how to gain weight" blog.

This was after I went through my amex statement and realized that in 6 weeks we spent $1,200 on EATING OUT. Can you fucking believe that. UN REAL...

The husband and I had a sit down and really discussed that we need to change. Its a sad world when you waffle about getting a new $600 gym membership - but will chow down on 1200 dollars worth of food at restaurants???

That is coupled with other excuses that we come up with. Like, the husband doesn't like to work out after dinner/eating. But out life is really unsupportive of early evening work outs. So, I am going to have to start going on my own because I don't give a shit anymore that he doesn't want to go.

His life has been getting astronomically better since I got here and mine has gotten astronomically worst. He has lost 20lbs, I have gained 30lbs. I just can not live like he can and I need to get moving. So I will be doing these things for me. And in turn that will be for him ... because I have been one cranky beatch for the last couple of months.

Okay. Here we go.

The Bad
now am 300lbs
spent too much money on food
stopped exercising

The Good
realized that change is needed
talked to husband about it
got a new gym membership
Tuesday was my last day at my old job - star my new one on June 1. Clean slate!

The Focus
Get to the gym 4x a week
eat at home
take healthy lunches/pack night before
drink more water
get back to blogging.

also... I've decided that I am not going to use Facebook from Mon-Friday. I can get on FB on weekends and catch up - and that's it. I've been wasting an hour or more at night looking at Facebook... I could have been to and back from the gym in that time. I think my friends will forgive me for letting this one slip.

Reporting....

1. Not enough water drank today.
2. Too much crap food eaten today.

I did walk home today and I'm going to bed early so to get a full 8 hours of sleep. Lots of activity planned for tomorrow, so I'm sure to make up for it.

:)