Spawn - Day 6 (Weigh In)

Phase 3 first weigh in... I saw Allans predictions yesterday and was scared... I've not been weighing myself this week to reduce stress! ha!

got on the scales today:

287.2lbs


Down 3.2lbs!

YAY!!!

What is different this week. Well, I know that this week I did lower my calories a bit, and I made an even bigger effort to get my water in, I did 2 big walks, and I did something that I've not done before. Really adjust my eating to compensate for earlier meals. I'm working hard on the mental side of eating, and trying to find myself actually hungry before each meal. Apparently, its working!

I am so excited to read about how everyone else has done.

Community Service does a body good!

Wow... I'm exhausted, and delighted.

Today our company sent 35 people out to work on a house for Habitat for Humanity. It was amazing. I was up and at the office at 6.15am, we were at the job site at 7am. It was a really fulfilling feeling, to be out there working for the betterment of some very grateful and hardworking people.

And fun. I hammered nails, got to run a saw gun thingy (technical term!). Swept, picked up nails, ran water, got ice, hammered more nails....it was totally AWESOME.

We were allowed to BUY steel toe boots and charge it to the company. I was astounded that they are so supportive of the cause. Makes me smile. My arms, hands, back, legs and feet are tired and sore. But I feel amazing! What a fabulous day.

I drank about... 6L of water today at the site. Peed twice. We were working hard, and it was hot and humid today. I'm pounding it back right now.

Weighed in this morning at 287.4lbs. So, I'm happy to report that yesterday weight was either 1. the scale was in an uneven spot on the tile (does happen, the bathroom floor is roughish) or 2. I had a lot of water/poo retention... also very possible! ha!

We are off in a couple hours to another Highland games tomorrow. I'm going to struggle a little with soreness from working all day today, but it was so worth it. Home Sunday...for my official weigh in. I can't wait.

Its also going to be time for some new inches and maybe.... pictures!!!!!!! :)

I will post up the food from Friday/Sat and Sun later! Time to pack up my kilt, toss the hammer in the car and get dinner ready for the husband... he is driving tonight.

Hump Day

I just finished reading a great Article that Ann linked on her post yesterday.

And I have to say that today I think I'm getting over the hump of the "extreme need to pee at all times" feeling. Now I'm actually thirsty for more water (sick...yes, true... yes). The flushing is almost over, the healthy water intake is working its "magic" and this morning I weighed an astonishing 286lbs.

ummmm WHAT THE F*BOMB!!! omg...that is 6lbs down from Monday. Is that even possible????!!!!!!

I didn't even notice losing the weight. I wasn't crying myself to sleep dreaming of cake and cookies and how much losing weight sucks and how hard it is. I just woke up less. I better check under the bed and see if there is a small me under there.

... I feel like there is going to be a surprise camera jump out and tell me they have been switching out the scale every morning.

I am eating almost every single calorie that I'm allowed. I am not hungry all the time, I'm not unhappy. This is so bloody strange/AWESOME!

Take that Fat *pew pew*

There is still 1/4 of this damn cake sitting here on my desk. I'm going to move it to the kitchen as soon as I finish this post - so that the office wolves can have at it. I'm sick of looking at it and no one in this department is eating it. Begone Cake!

Water so far is: 94oz. Great start to the day.

Food:

Walking In the Rain

Today was my morning crafting get together at 9.30am. Very fun! And has inspired me to do some more crafting in the evenings.

I knew that I was going for lunch with one of the ladies to a tea house - so I had a very good breakfast of Oatmeal, Red Mill 10grain cereal, pears and a little bit of Peanut butter and honey. When we arrived for lunch, at 12.30.

Earl Grey Tea
Chicken and Pesto Paninni
small cup of Tomato basil soup
and
Blackberry cobbler with a scoop of vanilla ice cream

I'm really quite stuffed and I need a walk! Its raining... but I am taking the husband and we are going to put on jackets and hats and walk for at least 30min. I'm not a great fan of walking in the rain - but I'm also not a great fan of being a lardy ass anymore either.

So....as the saying goes: there are only two things that melt in rain... sugar and sh*t...which one are you?! haha

I also know that I want to be less generous with what my evening food is going to be.... speaking of. I need to get this into my calorie spreadsheet so I know exactly what I can have!

Right.... Morning weigh in... this was a tricky one. Because the first thing that I read was:

298.6!!! And as I was trying to do the math on the scale to see how much I gained.. I realized that it said:

289.6


TWO HUNDRED and EIGHTY NINE POINT SIX FREAKING POUNDS..... wow. WOW...!!!!!!!!!!

I'm pretty excited for tomorrows weigh in. Now - to spend the rest of today doing things that are good for me and not sabotaging al the work that has been done this week.
:)

Swift Kick!!

Morning Weight In: 290.6lbs

Wait.....This is starting to freak me out. I jumped on the scale quickly last night to make sure that it was still working.. it is. Really....does eating right (tossing junk), drinking water and getting exercise really work?!! ha ha!

I made some "behavior changes" this week. Its Thursday and I have ate my packed lunch every day this week. We have yet to have a meal out at all, and typically I would have had 1 or 2 (or 3) meals courtesy of restaurants by now.

We had Colcannon (Irish dish of cabbage, kale, onion and potatoes and corn beef) for Dinner on St.Patties day. I had it at lunch today with my salad (greens, strawberries, pear, chicken breast, and goat cheese with raspberry vinaigrette...yes it was that good!). Needless to day I was .... a bit windy today at the office. We had it for dinner today as well ... so I don't know what I am going to do tomorrow! Ekk! My poor co-workers, I'm going to be Crop-Dusting all day!

Friday if "Free for all Food Frenzy" at the office. So I am going to make my hearty Oatmeal breakfast bowl tonight... it will be an "add water & nuke" deali-o that I can take with me to work. That will fill me up and hopefully keep the munchies away. I may stop and get a Starbucks coffee to drink at my desk...if that will keep me out of the offending kitchen where the snacks live.

Today I didn't get into the gym - the left side of my lower back is still complaining about my run in with the garbage can.. and its tight, so today was walking in the evening with the husband. Very lovely out and an enjoyable evening!

Small Steps I took Today:

1. Had a yogurt and a nectarine for an afternoon snack instead of letting myself get too hungry and go get terrible treats to comfort myself

2. Said no to my co-workers inviting me out for lunch

3. Walking after dinner, even though I wanted to just sit on the couch and veg

Expectations

Day 1 of weigh in every day went well.

Which is GREAT, and horrible…because now I have an expectation of what I can and should do. And expectations can be dangerous things. Which I will parley into my post here a little later.

Of course, I also drank a LOT (more) water (than I have been typically drinking) yesterday, had great homemade food all day (no junk!), got a good night’s rest last night, and had a giant poo right before stepping on the scale. All of these things are part of the real long term solution for my weight loss. The only missing link was exercise, which I did not do yesterday.

Weigh In: 290.6 (down 5.6lbs) !!!!!

I wanted to get some junk food yesterday – getting punched in the wallet is what stopped me. I had no cash and the only bank machine costs me $5 in transaction fees to get out money… I couldn’t justify that for $1.50's worth of M&M’s costing me $6. I also know that these feelings of “needing and deserving” junk is all part of the bigger issue. I need to learn to ignore these, or change them… but for now, I’m going to settle on just managing to be too cheap to buy any!

So now I can expect more from myself, because I know I can do it. It is possible to lose the weight, it is possible for me not to eat junk. But with expectations comes the dark side of “not living up to them”. Which is what happened with a particularly wonderful supportive and bright blogger names Lisa (and her friends that she directed here). Who I let down, I don’t know what she was expecting, but I did not deliver and for that I am sorry.